He's Got The Suds....

We'll have to miss our home school posse today. That cold virus I kicked rather quickly last week has unfortunately set up production in DS14. Although he did drink an Emergen-C yesterday, I can't convince the kid to try my other homeopathic remedies. Maybe I should make garlic bread only this time, I'll add the garlic raw, after the bread's been toasted. Think he'll notice?

Yumi has spring fever. She's been attacking our legs when we try to walk, like she did when she was a kitten. Even though she's not an outside cat, she thinks she is. She'll sit by the door and meow to be let out. Its not going to happen cat, so give it up.

She's been tricking us into over feeding her. We usually feed her twice a day, 1/4 cup of kibble in the morning and 1/4 cup at night. She's been waking up DS14 at 6:00am and he'll give her the 1/4 cup. I would get up after 7:30am, her dish would be empty and I'd think I needed to feed her. Now we are writing down when we've fed her so she can't trick us humans into giving her more. I knew she was trying to pull something similar at night. DH would feed her at supper time. 15 minutes before I get home from work around 9:30pm, she'd chow down the rest on the plate so I would walk in the door and think she hadn't been fed. Its strange as if she can almost tell time.

I started reading Everything Bad Is Good For You by Steven Johnson. I'm early into it, but I think I'm going to enjoy this book. The chapter I'm at examines the "books are better than games" debate. Mention your child reads books all day and most people will think highly of your child. Mention your child plays games all day and most people will think your child is less intelligent.

When you examine this stereotype closer, children playing games are often using critical thinking, and social interaction. They have to use their brains to make decisions which will reflect the outcome of their game. Many games are played in groups, (online gaming), so it can be said gamers also must use socialization skills.

When a child reads a book they follow the story's lead, not their own. The reader has to go where they are taken. Most reading is done solitary, without group interaction.

This is not to say reading books is not as good as playing games, or vice verse. It simply points out how we need to question these stereotypes and open our minds to alternatives.   

My workout partner is up and running. I better get moving myself and join him. Have a great day!   

I'm excited we'll be in the 40's (Fahrenheit) by the end of the week. You know its been a long winter when you get excited about 40 degree weather.

Donos - Vanilla flavor

Description:
I can't call these donuts because they don't have holes. I didn't have a donut pan. I used a bundt cake shaped muffin pan, which is even stranger. The holes baked shut. They still came out tasting really good and since they were baked, not fried, much less fat. I tweaked a recipe I saw in Family Circle magazine.

Ingredients:
1 3/4 C flour
1/2 t baking soda
1/4 t salt
1/2 C milk - I didn't have buttermilk so I used skim.
1/3 C dark brown sugar
1 egg
4 t unsalted butter, melted
2 t vanilla extract

Icing
1/2 C powdered sugar
2 t milk
1/2 t vanilla extract
sprinkles


Directions:
Heat oven to 325F, spray your pan with non stick spray.

In a large bowl mix the dry ingredients. In another bowl, mix the wet. Mix the two together to form a very sticky, wet dough.

Spoon the dough into a zip lock bag. Snip off the corner of the bag and pipe the dough into the pan. With moist fingers, smooth out the dough if needed.

Bake for 15 minutes or until an inserted toothpick comes out clean. Cool on a wire rack while you mix up the icing.

Stir together the powdered sugar, milk and vanilla. Spoon the icing over the Donos and add sprinkles if you wish.

Low Fat Banana Bread

Description:
I tweaked recipes from both my husband's family and mine and came up with a perfect low fat banana bread we all love.

The secret is to roast those bananas before you mash them. It really brings out the flavor of the bananas.

Ingredients:
4 large ripe bananas
2 large eggs
2 t vanilla
1/2 C applesauce

1 3/4 C flour
1/2 C sugar
2 t baking powder
3/4 t baking soda
1/4 t salt
1/2 C chocolate chips

Directions:
In a 325 F oven, roast the bananas in their skins for 20 minutes. They will turn black. Allow them to cool, and then peel and mash them.

Beat the eggs with the vanilla and the applesauce. Add in the mashed bananas.

In a separate bowl, mix the dry ingredients. Stir the wet ingredients into the dry until mixed. Add the chocolate chips.

Spray your loaf pan with non stick spray or grease it. Add the batter into your loaf pan and bake the bread at 325 F for 50-60 minutes.

Allow the bread to cool on a wire rack for 10 minutes before removing from the bread pan.

I've been summoned for FEDERAL JURY DUTY! Last summer they sent me a questionnaire, and I was hoping my occupation, "homeschooling mom", would be excused. A few years ago I got out of local jury duty this way. Apparently the federal government doesn't understand I can't call in a substitute teacher.

Another Babble (Blogger's Block)

Why is it, when I have my turn on the computer, I can't organize my thoughts and make note of the blog worthy events that have transpired in my life?

Phone's been ringing and DH's had more interviews but no offers yet. I don't know how much more unemployment twilight zone I can take. It seems like we're heading in a direction, but I don't know which direction that is.

I beat back my cold virus. I was grateful what could have been 10 days was only 2.

I'm back on the Wii, but haven't attempted to throw air punches. My boxing injury did take over 2 weeks to go away. My latest favorite is the virtual biking around the Wii Island, trying to find the flags.

Except for figuring out how to fix our snow thrower, I haven't had time to flex my autodidact muscle and that has to change soon. I have to work on organizing my time better. I've been too busy trying to steer the raft through the rapids. I haven't had a chance to enjoy any scenery.

I need to seek out inspiration. I'm suffering from a lack of exposure to nature and art.

Time's up. The Sleepyhouse is awake and its time to put on my Mancake apron.  I think I'll add blueberries and cranberries to my Womancake.

Have a great weekend!

Its not quite blogger's block. Life just doesn't feel cohesive.

Wish I could relax. I need a distraction. Preferably one that brings blessings.

WPA Homeschooling Conference

Start:	May 7, '10
End:	May 8, '10
Location:	Oshkosh,WI

Wisconsin Parents Association's homeschooling conference in Oshkosh. Our family is hosting Apples to Apples, Letterboxing and Artist Trading Card workshops.

http://homeschooling-wpa.org/

Fluids, rest, a little activity to get the lymph moving, garlic, apple cider vinegar, Emergen-C, it all seems to be working and the Rhino is losing!

I'm fighting off the rhino. I'll be chopping garlic, gargling with apple cider vinegar and eating veggies trying to beat this cold back. I don't have the time or money to get sick.

Fixing The Snow Thrower

I was dragging by the end of the week. The combination of work, stress, recovering from injury and fighting off illness really slowed me down. All I really wanted to do is perfect the art of couch potato. I couldn't completely zone out. Our snow thrower wasn't working and with a storm predicted, we really wanted to fix it.

After researching online, (what would we do without Youtube?), we think we diagnosed the problem and set about the fix. This is huge for us, because we aren't normally mechanically inclined.

The auger and fan would turn until you threw snow at it. Then the fan would stop. We took apart the machine and replaced the auger belt, even though at first glance, it didn't look like it needed replacing. We put the thrower back together and ta daa.... it began to throw snow again. Of course the real test comes tomorrow after the storm arrives.

I'm proud we troubleshooted and attempted to fix it ourselves. Of course it helped knowing we couldn't take it anywhere to be fixed in time for the snow storm. We could have committed ourselves to snow shoveling the old fashioned way while waiting for a professional to fix our problem, or we could take a stab at it ourselves and perhaps find a solution on our own. If the machine truly throws the 6-10 inches we're expecting to get, I'll be so happy! If not, at least we learned a great deal more about our snow thrower.

We conquered our fear of the unknown and didn't allow our inexperience to intimidate us. We'd have to take the machine apart anyway to fit it into the car to drive to a repair shop. What was the worse we could do? It was already broken.

Actually, we did practically break another small part, but we're ready to fix that if it breaks all the way. The auger cable was really poorly designed, using a too soft metal for the holding pin. The pin is cracked, but we have a fix ready if or when it decides to give way.

Sometimes finding solutions, uncovers more problems, but the autodidact learns from them and with that comes confidence. We just can't give up. We have to keep learning.

Garden Planning Notes- Building Cloches

I'm already planning for spring. I vow to go bigger and better with how much we can grow. I'm finding inspiration from tons of books and magazines, and lately the bee in my bonnet is building cloches.

I would love to have a greenhouse, but have no money to build one. I think we're going to try building a cloche or mini green house. Many cloches are constructed by simply draping plastic over wires or flexible tubing, but I found a website that suggests you go even smaller, making tiny cloches out of plastic CD cases. I'm not sure yet how we'll connect them, but I thought the boys could help me build cubes out of old CD cases and our baby plants could each have their own mini cloche.

Another idea I want to try is using hanging baskets wrapped with that plastic you use for insulating drafty windows. I envision several hanging cloches catching early spring rays, hoping to get some strawberry plants growing. Once the danger of frost is gone, I will unwrap them, although I can see the plastic CD cube idea being more reusable.

In regards to the photo, although I'm interested to see if this would work, I doubt my neighbors would be that understanding. Plus, do I want my family drinking that much soda?

"If we continually try to force a child to do what he is afraid to do, he will become more timid, and will use his brains and energy, not to explore the unknown, but to find ways to avoid the pressures we put on him." - John Holt

African Supper Plate- My version

Description:
I don't really know how this is "African" but I adapted a recipe my aunt uses.

I chose to serve it over brown rice to make it a bit more healthy, and I used NO sodium beef bouillon. I didn't miss the salt at all.

I also chose to use my slow cooker and make this over the course of one day. My aunt's recipe takes two days, marinating the meat on day one.

Ingredients:
Meat with marinade:
2 pounds of beef, cut into 1-2 inch cubes- I saved money by purchasing a round tip steak at $2.49 a pound and chopped it up myself, but you could just purchase "beef stew" meat
2 C of water
2 beef bouillon cubes - I used no salt beef bouillon packets from Hormel.
1/2 t curry powder
1/2 C white wine

Brown Rice:
1 1/2 cups of brown rice
3 c water
1 T butter

Toppings:
tomatoes- chopped into bite sized pieces
cucumbers- chopped into bite sized pieces
green onions- diced
mandarin oranges- I use unsweetened, canned in pear juice, drain the juice
pineapple chunks- unsweetened, drain the juice
cashews- chopped
flaked coconut

Directions:
In your slow cooker, add all of the meat & marinade ingredients. Slow cook on medium to high for 4 hours.

An hour before you want to eat, mix the brown rice and water in a pot with a tight fitting lid and bring the rice to a boil. Reduce the heat and simmer the rice for 45 minutes or until done. Add 1 T of butter to the hot, cooked rice and stir.

While the rice and meat are cooking, chop up your veggies and drain your canned fruit. Place each topping ingredient in a separate bowl to allow your guests to build their African Supper Plates, salad bar style. This way if you have a picky eater, they can choose what they want.

To assemble your African Supper Plate, begin with a base of brown rice. Add your meat, spooning some of the marinade over the rice. Add cucumbers, tomatoes, green onions, pineapple, oranges, cashews and top with coconut. It will feel like you're making a Sundae for supper! Enjoy!

(You could choose to thicken your marinade by adding corn starch before serving, but I didn't bother since we spooned it over rice.)

Our Valentine's Weekend..rolling into a ramble....

We invited G-Ma to visit for the weekend. We introduced her to 1 vs.100 and now she is hooked as well. Its absolutely crazy how time flies when you are playing 1 vs.100 on XBox live.

I snuck away for a short while to visit with my Diva sisters. The other Divas were not feeling well, so it was just me, my cousin and my aunt. They made me African Supper Plate. It was amazingly delicious. I snagged the recipe because I knew I'd have to make this again very soon. In fact, here it is 48 hours later, and I'm planning it for Monday night's supper.

Its white wine & curry marinated beef which you serve on top of rice. You top the beef with chopped tomatoes, cucumbers, green onions, pineapple chunks, mandarin oranges, nuts and flaked coconut. I can't explain it, but the fruit works with the veggies & meat very well.

We watched a great chick flick movie, My Life In Ruins, and now I want to travel to Greece.

Sunday, Valentine's Day, the menfolk took G-ma & I out for lunch at Laredos. I scored some amazing guacamole. They serve it in this authentic stone bowl, which if you want, you can take home with you for $30. Would I really use this bowl for anything else? Probably not. I decided to take my leftover guacamole home in Styrofoam instead. 

Overall, we had a great weekend, but it was over shadowed by unemployment stress. For at least the next two weeks, we have to go without filing for an unemployment check. DH is considering working on a potential project for his ex-boss. He won't actually get paid for it until May, but even so, because he "works" on it now, he can't file for unemployment. Whether you get paid now or later doesn't matter. Its the time frame when you do the work that matters.

We don't want to commit fraud and I don't want my husband to go to jail, so we're opting to be honest and not receive a check for a few weeks. We'll live off of the tax return and hope and pray DH's ex-boss actually does pay him in May. Its scary. I don't feel we can trust the man.

I'm still trying to focus on moving forward and keep hoping and praying there will be more opportunities to rise up out of this. Despite how great our family is and how blessed we are to have what we do, there is still this dark shadow over everything. You can't really enjoy anything fully, because underneath, you know the stress and uncertainly is still there. I can embrace my family and the fun we share, but when the pleasant distractions are over, reality bites you. Its the last thought you have before drifting off and the first conscious thought that greets you the next morning.

Every few days you break down, have a good cry, but then you pick yourself back up and keep looking for hope and opportunity. I have to keep telling myself this is making us stronger, but some days that's a tough sell.

Sometimes, you just dream about how you wish your life was going instead. It can be an escape, but it also teaches you what's really important. For me, my heart's desire is to be home with my boys, homeschooling them through high school. I'm happiest in my nest.

Happy Valentine's Day! Hope you all have the chance to share love with those around you today. "Love ain't love until you give it up," - Vedder

There's No Place Like Home...

This is Yumi's way of saying, I've been away too long. She doesn't want me to put on my coat and leave again.

This week was too busy. I had to spent too much time away from home, away from those I love and from the work I enjoy doing the most, taking care of my family. I'm really hoping someday to be able to get back to only working 3 nights a week, part-time.

Part of my work week had me in daycare centers, doing water safety demonstrations. I thought my presentations went pretty well, but I can't help but feel for those children. I know this will offend some, but there really is no place like home for child development. I can say this because I've been on both sides of the fence.

The three years my oldest spent in daycare still haunt me. Its my only regret in life. If I could go back in time, I would have left the corporate world sooner. No one can love your child the way you do, unconditionally. And discipline without unconditional love doesn't work.

I have nothing against early childhood education centers, but children shouldn't have to spend the majority of their conscious awareness hours with a teacher rather than a parent. Daycare centers have to structure the entire day in order to handle so many children, and all that structure doesn't allow for respecting a child's individual needs.

Its too bad we don't have more options for parents to stay home with their children. I would love to see early childhood learning centers where both parents and children could learn together. How fun would it be to attend preschool, enjoying games, arts and crafts, and stories together and then be able to continue the fun at home? Preschool teachers could be mentors for new parents showing them how to motivate creative learning within the home as well. Moms and Dads could meet others to establish supportive friendships.

Why does our society push for the separation of child and parent so soon? Is it because the government wants you to work to fuel the economy? How well is that working out right now? Is it because parents can't be trusted?

Or is it that many parents had children without realizing how much work it was going to be and they just want out?

I'll get off my soapbox now. I can be a downer when I'm stressed and depressed.

The boys and DH are addicted to 1 vs 100 on X-Box live. The past several nights they have been playing with great success, scoring many rounds in the top 100 out of over 10,000 plus players. If only they could play on a real game show and win us lots of dough! :) For trivia fanatics like us, this game is perfect.

DH's interview went very well, but he probably doesn't have all of the qualifications they are looking for. When he asked why we was chosen to interview since he clearly didn't have the required skills listed on his resume, the president of the company said, "Frankly, you wrote a cover letter. You would be surprised how many resumes we get without cover letters. It was your cover letter that made us want to meet you." Even if he isn't called back, it was reassuring to know he can interview very well and his resume and cover letter writing skills are above par. It was the boost I think he needed to keep going and not give up the search.

Tonight I think we'll do pizza and watch the opening ceremonies of the Olympics. All I want to do is get into my comfy clothes and de-stress. I really need to recharge this weekend because next week will be similar to this past one.

Another crazy day with no time for computer fun. I miss you and will have to catch up Friday afternoon.

DH's interview will have to wait until tomorrow. The snow is strong enough to be annoying, but not strong enough to warrant me staying put. I swear my city is running chlorine pool water through my tap and our second car is breaking down, but I will persevere. I've got just enough fight in me today, there's no chance stress will break me.

Random Babbling....

Can you crave smells? Right now I want to smell candles that have been snuffed out. Is that strange?

I've read recently when it comes to heart disease, not drinking enough water is as damaging as smoking. Teas and other beverages don't count. It has to be plain water. Guess what's always going to be within my reach now?  I'm hoping to become a chain water drinker.

We're under a severe winter weather warning for tomorrow. We could end up with 11 inches of blowing, drifting snow. You would know it, DH has an interview tomorrow, and I'm suppose to work at the pool. I need spring soon.

I decided to try Wii Gold's Gym Cardio while jumping on the mini trampoline, (re-bounder). My legs now hate me, but I keep telling them Capri weather will come back soon. It will all be worth it. Plus, I did greatly improve my jump roping count. I think the trampoline helped with my rhythm. I hope I can keep it up.

We watched Whip It before the Superbowl yesterday. Now I want to unpack my long lost roller skates, and tear it up. My children are mortified. I can remember being young and spending virtually all weekend on those skates. My dad bought them for me because I saved him the cost of a hotel, agreeing to drive 12 straight hours home instead.

Why does Netflix mail travel so quickly but it takes several days to send a letter? Does Netflix pay the USPS more? Don't get me wrong. I think its awesome we're saving over $80 on our cable bill and still able to watch all these movies. I'm a complete Netflix convert.

Wish there was a Bookflix. Or would that be "Netboox"?

DH is going to call soon and tell me he's on the way home. This means I'm going to have to figure something out for supper. Hope I can sell everyone on leftovers.

What's been going on 2/7/10...

Breathing a sigh of relief this morning. I fixed our internet and phone outages. My men will be very happy to learn this when they wake up.

Yesterday we headed to K-town to visit with DMIL. She spoiled us with quite a delicious feast, hot beef sandwiches, shrimp scampi, pizza, mojoes, french fries, spinach dip, and donuts for dessert.

Too full to move much, we watched several scary movies, some more cheesy, some more scary. Fear House- started out cheesy, but it didn't last. Plague Town- good scary potential, but it didn't deliver as promised. Our favorite- The Locals- more of a mystery that gets you thinking about what's going on.

We've been asked to host a few workshops again for our state's annual home schooling conference. I had a feeling we'd be invited back, but I wasn't sure if I wanted to do it again this year. The conference falls on our anniversary and who knows if we'll still be in unemployment survival mode?

We decided to plan on helping out, and I'm sure we'll find a way to make it all work. The conference is something we look forward to every year, and we enjoy being able to help the Wisconsin Parent's Association because they do so much to ensure Wisconsin keeps our great homeschooling law. Our family's admission fees will be waived for volunteering so its only our hotel cost, gas and food we have to come up with. It will be a fun weekend away.

Our workshops help other home schoolers meet each other and have fun at the conference. Last year we introduced an Apples To Apples game gathering and it went over very well. We're also bringing back Letterboxing. This year will be our 3rd year hosting this. We're worried we're running out of hiding spots, but we'll just have to get more creative with clues.

I'm really excited that WPA asked us to bring back the Artist Trading Card workshop. Last year they didn't request this one, and I had families stop me at the conference asking me why we didn't have one. Of course this means I have to get back to making ATCs, something I've really stopped doing. It will feel good to bring my artsy side back out. She's been hiding away for too long during all this stress.

Today I'm also planning to de-stress with a little domestic goodness. I started spring cleaning on Friday and I want to continue on that. Of course we'll watch the game tonight as well. We'll be rooting for the Saints.

I better get moving. I can hear my men folk starting to stir. 
 

Wednesday's Ramble Into Unschooling Thoughts...

I'm trying not to freak out. DH is away doing a favor for his old boss and of course, a potential job lead calls. Oh, the irony. It is impossible for DH to call this recruiter back because he is currently sitting just feet away from Mr. Ex-Boss. I have this sinking feeling DH will miss out on an opportunity because he is trying to help bring work back to his old employer. I told him the first chance he gets, break away to return that call!

I came down with a nasty headache last night on my drive home from work. I tried to sleep it off, but by 3:30am it was so painful, I couldn't sleep. I took a few Advil and calmed my meningitis fears. A local college student lost their battle with meningitis, and because I work with so many college kids and being in a lack of sleep state, I worried irrationally that I may have contracted meningitis.

This morning I woke with a duller ache and a more rational thought. I'VE BEEN STRESSED OUT- ITS NOT MENINGITIS!! I don't normally get headaches or even sick for that matter, but with all the stress I've been under, this is perfectly normal. I need to focus on taking better care of myself.

I asked the boys to start thinking of something they could do that would produce tangible evidence of their learning. (Will I be forever deschooling myself?) I didn't care what they did, but I just felt like we needed something to show that unschooling does indeed work. (Again, I'm sure this is because I've been stressed.)

DS14 decided he would like to produce videos. At first he asked for a new camera, but I reminded him we're in unemployment survival mode. There's no room in the budget, work with what we've got. He impressed me with his resourcefulness. He found a computer program I didn't realize we even had, and he taught himself how to use it. He now has a few short clips under his belt, and he's asking for permission to post them on Youtube. Unschooling does work.

You may already realize the unschooling benefits, but forgive me for wanting to point a few out. (Like everything in my blog posts, its mostly for my benefit.)

1. What he wanted couldn't be given to him. He had to go and get it for himself. (motivation)

2. He taught himself a new computer program without anyone's help. (creative thinking)

3. He enjoyed the work he put in to the project. (satisfaction and confidence)

4. He used his sense of humor along with his intelligence. (joy)

5. He has a desire to share his work with others. (community)

6. He wants to produce more, even bigger and better. (continued growth)

Its not difficult for me to see the future benefit of "playing" around making video clips either. If he doesn't end up in movies or television, he could have a future in advertising, archiving, or technology. This could branch out in any direction he wants to take it.

As for DS11, his fascination with Canada took him to a place I didn't expect. I knew coming off of watching the Winter X Games, he had his mind on the winter Olympics. I thought he would be more interested in learning about Vancouver, but one of his first bits of information he shared, "Mom, We need $10,000 if our family wants good seats at the opening ceremony. If we're going to watch Shaun White, we'll need another $3000." He's also figured out its going to take us over 33 hours to drive there. (He doesn't want to fly in airplanes because they crash.)

I had to remind him as well, we're in unemployment survival mode. He said its okay if we just watch the Olympics on TV.

So does this mean DS11 is headed towards a career in financial planning, accounting, travel agent, chauffeur, airline safety expert? Who knows. The point is to focus on how their interests will lead them to possibilities you may not expect. This is how I need to deschool myself. My job is to help them realize they have all the power if they want to claim it. Its not about meeting the expectation of others, but about exceeding the expectations of yourself.
  

1/31/10 Ending Weekend Notes....

We've mostly been couch spuds this weekend, but that's okay. All too soon, things are going to get crazy busy.

The Winter X Games have been on almost constantly in our house, and if given the chance to live my life again, I'd be a snowboarder. I wish I could fly like they do. They're simply amazing. I wonder if I could get my body in shape, if I'm too old to learn to snowboard without braking bones?

We worked on our taxes, hoping to get those done ASAP. Trying to save money this year, we're attempting to use the free programs available from the IRS website. All I can say, is next year, hopefully the unemployment crisis is over and we can afford to purchase a regular tax preparation software.

We watched two very good cheesy movies last night, Chiller Drive In Theater had Phantom Planet, and then we watched the end of The Incredible Two Headed Transplant on the THIS network. DH was so sweet, keeping the salt off of my popcorn.

We also received our first Netflix movie in the mail, although it wasn't one of my choices, Saw 6. Although I like a good scary movie, I don't like torture. I'm hoping the next one we receive will be something I'll enjoy.

I missed getting to the library before they closed or I would have picked up the book I have on hold, Food Not Lawns. Instead I've been reading a book my neighbor lent me, The Encyclopedia of Country Living by Carla Emery. Its got just about everything you could think of. I'm going to research building some cloches for our garden, and I'm tempted to make french fried dandelion blossoms. This book is dangerously good for an autodidact like me. I'm going to have to see if I can find my own copy at the used book store someday.

I'd like to do something special for Groundhog Day, but I don't know what yet. We don't have a local celebration, but maybe I'll suggest we visit the zoo in Madison. I don't know if they still have their groundhog, but maybe the prairie dogs will tell us something?

Random Acts Of Kindness Week Begins

Start:

Feb 15, '10

Practice more random acts of kindness this week.

Valentine's Day

Start:

Feb 14, '10

Diva Night!

Start:	Feb 13, '10
Location:	Rockford,IL

Valentine's Diva Night!

Wear Red Day

Start:

Feb 5, '10

For Women's Heart Disease Awareness

1/30/10 Beginning Weekend Notes....

It was crazy cold Friday night, but that didn't stop us. We picked up an early supper of McDonald's for the boys and then left the teenagers at home alone. Along with my sister, DH & I headed into Madison to see my nephew perform with his band, Seven Signs. Its a more crunchy type of metal than I'm used to, but my nephew is really good! We're looking forward to going back and see his band again in a few weeks.

Being back in a bar/nightclub, I realized how much I have missed enjoying live music. Once we're back on our feet, I think DH & I will have to get back to rocking out on a regular basis, even though our favorite band is still without a lead singer.

After we got home, the boys were still up, enjoying having the house to themselves. Together we stayed up and watched Ghost Hunters. I must have been tired because it started to spook me a little. This morning, I now realize how Ghost Hunters fake it and its all acting. I'm so silly when I get tired! :)

As nostalgic I feel realizing my boys are no longer babies, and they need me less each day, I do have to admit, having this extra time to devote to my husband and my personal life feels good. It makes the time we can spend together as a family better.

Just a few things I want to make note of...

The roller coaster is still going. I've told the Big Guy I'm ready for this ride to stop, but apparently, that's not His plan. I have forgotten what normal feels like. DH mentioned to me this is the longest he's ever gone without working since he was 13. Its breaking my heart to see him so down. You have to understand, he has a strong work ethic and its killing him not being able to provide for his family.

Awkward moment - I spoke personally with DH's Ex-boss. He called looking for DH, who ironically was on his way to meet with Mr. Ex-Boss. "I feel really bad. I want you to know I'm doing everything I can for you guys and hoping work will come back soon." I know for a fact this is bogus, yet I had to thank the man. Its not my place to throw a match onto that bridge.

Onto some good stuff- DS11 told me the other night, "I want to be better friends with Jakob," (his older brother.)

"Why? Are you guys fighting?"

"No, I just want us to be better friends."  Awwww!!! We talked about what makes a good friend and he decided he would try to be a better friend himself.

My neighbor friend has shared wonderful news with me. Her cancer is shrinking!! Her doctor diagnosed her with 4th stage lunch cancer and gave her a 1% survival chance last October. She decided to declare war on her cancer and attacked it back with lots of prayer, healthy living and chemo. I'm going to continue to pray for her healing.

LOL!!! I just proofed that last paragraph and saw I had typed "lunch" not lung. I'm leaving it in because I need a good laugh!

Tonight DH & I are planning on going to see our nephew's band, 7th Sign, perform. Its a bit more hard core metal than I'm used to, but its my nephew. I want to see the look on my sister's face when her baby drops an F bomb into the microphone.

I think we'll stay home this weekend too. We were tempted to take a road trip to K-town, but we want to get our taxes done. I'm hoping there's some refund dollars we can add to our account to help get us a little further.

We knew we had to do it, and when this last bill came, we were pushed into action. We cancelled some of our cable services. We're giving up movie channels along with my beloved BBC America. Evil Charter cable had raised our bill to $232.00 a month.  We have to keep the internet going. Its a must for job searching and home schooling, and we have to keep the phone service. We live in an area where we don't always get cell phone coverage and every outgoing call is considered long distance. We can give up HBO, Showtime, etc. and cut almost $80 off our monthly bill.

We're going to try Net Flix. For around $9 a month, we can have unlimited streaming of movies to our PS3 and soon our Wii. Supposably you can stream into 6 different sources, which should be more than enough for us. The first month is free, so we'll see how it works.

We know we can watch stuff on Hulu.com as well, but for the most part, we realize we watch mostly movies, play games and read books and magazines for entertainment. I'll learn to live without my BBC fun.

We're tempted to try Magic Jack for our phone, but I've heard mixed reviews. I've heard the connection isn't always that great and there are dropped calls.

I better stop babbling and get moving. My water glass is empty and the rest of the Sleepyhouse is finally starting to wake up.

 

"Self-knowledge helps release you from fear."- Norman Vincent Peale.~My unschooling heart knows this!

Reading Norman Vincent Peale's You Can If You Think You Can. I need the pick up.

"Best Sleep Over Yet..."

After all these years, I have the recipe down perfect. Deliver pizza, soda, video games, cake and morning cinnamon rolls to the Man Cave, invite over the posse crew and birthday parties are easy.

I just can't believe my baby is now 11. Where has the time gone?

The Great Backyard Bird Count

Start:	Feb 12, '10
End:	Feb 15, '10
Location:	http://www.birdsource.org/gbbc/

Count birds for 15 minutes and help the Great Backyard Bird Count
http://www.birdsource.org/gbbc/

Avatar was entertaining enough. I won't punch holes, even though I could. If you do plan on seeing it, I recommend 3D.

Fridays Are Fresh Days...1/22/10

I'm so glad Friday is here and the weekend can begin. Not being scheduled to work on Fridays anymore has really made a difference in my stress level. I have this one extra day to catch up on all we've missed during the week before the weekend begins.

The cut in hours does mean my paycheck is smaller, but I have to trust God will help it all work out. We may have to begin dipping into savings, but that tax refund is just around the corner and that will help us buy more time until DH can find work.

The news on the broken car- it was a stuck caliber and brake work. Bad news is that means $400, although I'm grateful it wasn't a transmission problem. I was thinking it was going to be thousands, so the $400 hurts much less.

Today we're using our movie gift certificates we received from DMIL at Christmas to see Avatar in 3D. Going to a movie on a Friday, in the middle of the day feels like playing hooky! It's going to be great, even if the movie isn't.

Tomorrow we'll have the birthday sleep over. 7 young men in the Mancave, eating pizza, drinking soda, staying up all night playing video games. My only responsibility- make homemade cinnamon rolls for breakfast the next morning.

Sunday our neighbors across the street are having us over for supper and football. I'm looking forward to garden planning with my mentor as well. My neighbor friend is a long time master gardener and with her guidance, I have decided to chop up most of our lawns to grow more organic veggies. 

Monday DS10 turns DS11. I do have to work that morning, and we have an appointment in the afternoon, but we're hoping to still take him out for supper in honor of his official day. Last night DH & I already began reminiscing about how quickly our son has grown. I think I'm going to have to pull out the baby pictures and get that scanning project going.

Hope you all have a great weekend!

Thursday 13 - Broken

13 Broken Things I Wish We Had The Money To Fix

1. My Vibe- :(  It started making a loud noise when I go over 55mph - thought it was the muffler but as I parked tonight, it made another awful noise and now I'm worried it has something to do with an expensive transmission.

2. Water softener - Noticing our water seemed a little on the hard side, I reminded DH to add salt to the softener. We discovered it was still full of salt even though we haven't added any in months. Now that we think about it, we can't remember hearing it run for quite awhile, but we did have it set to recycle at 3:00am.

3. The exhaust fan in the boys' bathroom is not working at all

4. The exhaust fan in our bathroom is broken too. It runs, but makes an awful racket.

5. Trying to plug Christmas lights into an outlet in the dark, I pushed too hard on a polarized plug and broke the outlet. It still works, but there is no resistance when you insert a plug. That can't be good.

6. Our teeth - I could use a few crowns and DS soon to be 11, needs braces

7. The recessed light over my kitchen sink. It would be much more pleasant to see how clean my dishes can be.

8. My camera.  The USB port no longer works and lately its taking cruddy photos.

9. The graphics card needs replacing on the downstairs computer.

10. The internal cooling fan is broken on that computer too.

11. All inside doors in our house do not close or open well at all.

12. No real lock on the boys' bathroom door. We busted it years ago when DS fell in the shower and we feared he had a head injury. Our improvised lock is just a hook, since we have to replace the entire door frame now.

13. MY OUTLOOK!!  The financial strain we're under is taking a huge toll on me. I'll go to bed now and hopefully things will look brighter in the morning. 

Looks like this day is going to require a little more effort to make it a good one, but I'm up for the challenge.

Our Weekend Update...(3rd in 2010)

Weekend lunch date with DH was sweet. Thanks to a coupon, it only cost us around $10 and we had plenty of leftovers to munch on for supper. We ordered our usual- pesto cavatappi for me and buttered noodles with shrimp for DH. 

We decided to move the computer desk in the Mancave, but that meant we had to complete two giant clean up projects first. One of which was moving our home school storage lockers. Years ago, DMIL bought us a set of lockers from a university surplus store. They are amazingly deep and hold tons of stuff, and when I say tons, I really mean tons.

We had to go through 18 lockers full of almost 10 plus years of homeschooling resources. It was an exericse in homeschooling anthropolgy. I uncovered evidence of the early days when I thought we needed packaged curriculum, to the more current favorites of unschooling magazines and art projects.  Now I have a box of stuff to donate and a box of stuff to try and re-sell. Would we be true home schoolers if we didn't have a little bit of purchase regret? We all do it! It took me a few years to realize I didn't have to shop the curriculum fair at the yearly home schooling conference.

Now that the computer desk is moved, we have more room for more bodies in the man cave. We are preparing for this coming Saturday's gaming sleep over, in honor of DS10's, coming 11th birthday. I discovered we have a few air mattresses we can inflate, not that anyone will be sleeping on them.

I just hope my clutz curse if over by then. For some reason, I've been injuring myself in stupid ways. Reaching for the soap in the shower, I drove my fingernail into my razor, slicing through the nail and into the nail bed. Now I keep catching it on everything. I can't wait for it to grow out, but everytime it catches on something, it rips down a little further. Keeping a bandage on it is not an option for me because I can't stand not washing my hands and wet bandaids gross me out!

Movie wise we discovered a few weeks ago we have the RTV channel, which I think stands for Retro TV. We now look forward to watching cheesy monster movies on Wolfman Mac's Chiller Drive In Theatre. We also discovered we get the "THIS" channel and this weekend they had on Killer Klowns In Outer Space with extra scenes! This is one of our favorite cheesy scary movies. On Sunday night we introduced the boys to another Alfred Hitchcock classic on BBC America, Vertigo. The boys did not see the twist coming at all. Last week we introduced them to The Birds.

Weather wise it never really got up to the 37 F they promised, but we did have freezing fog, which is breathtaking. I really wish I had a decent camera. All the trees and surfaces had frozen ice crystals growing on them. Our world looked like it was covered in powdered sugar.

The warmer weather is bringing stray cats back to our yard. Every night Yumi gives us heart attacks when she begins to yowl at the window. The past two nights we noticed it wasn't any old Tom cat, but Mojo from last year!

Mojo is the cat we tried to take in last year at this time, and after constantly trying to escape out the door, he was successful. We lost sight of him, but he must have a home somewhere in the neighborhood, and this was why he kept trying to get out.

Yumi was not happy to see him though. They have a boxing match through the glass door every time he comes to say hello.

DH & I are heading out on a lunch date today. We received a buy one get one coupon for Noodles! Can't pass that up! We have to try and find something for DS10- soon to be 11- 's birthday. We're at a loss. He only wants one thing. He did this at Christmas too, not giving us a list with options.

I'm grateful its warming up around here. Its crazy how good 33 F feels after going through below zero's. I know we have plenty of winter left, but I'm going to really enjoy this week of warming.

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Heading to the Social Security Office hoping for no lines and a quick result. Bringing my sense of humor just in case!!

Anyone Know How To Get Blood Out?

Getting ready for work at 5:00am, I walk into the kitchen and find Yumi sitting innocently, staring up at me. Directly in front of her is a little, although chunky, ball of shivering fur.

"Get it Yumi!! GET IT!" She still just stares at me.

I'm afraid to move for fear the critter will sprint. I call out to DH & DS. The three of us stare down waiting for either Yumi to pounce or this mouse to run. Yumi casually walks around the mouse to where her treats are kept. 

"Aren't you going to feed me?"

I'm amazed the mouse doesn't run. DH grabs a towel and throws it over the poor thing. It still doesn't run. He carries it outside. Its shaking but still doesn't try to get away. I head off to work hoping the critter will eventually scamper away.

I come home at lunch and to my dismay, there is now a frozen mousicle in my front yard.

In the daylight, we could now see the blood on the carpet. Yumi must have had a good old time with that poor mouse before we even got up. No wonder she just looked at me, wanting her breakfast. She had her taste of mouse sushi and decided she'd wait for dry kibble instead.

I'm hoping this is the same mouse we saw last fall. One morning I had gotten up to discover little beatie eyes staring at me from on top of the curtains. Yumi must have scared the poor thing up the drapes and onto the curtain rod.

DH & I tried to capture it, but it jumped in the wrong direction, falling to the floor. It then scampered across the kitchen floor, and my fat cat couldn't keep up with it. It ran under the stove. We took the stove apart trying to find it, to no avail. We set out a trap with chocolate and peanut butter, but it never took the bait.

On the plus side, I've never seen droppings so "Jerry" must have been living where we couldn't see him, until our "Tom Girl" Yumi found him. I just hope Jerry didn't have roommates, or we'll have to switch to hard flooring. I'm having trouble getting the blood out from the carpet.

We Love Having G-Ma Visit!!

She always brings us Infusino's take and bake pizzas!! They are so yummy!! We can't live in K-town because we would be eating too many of these.

We enjoyed a rather nice visit, and cousins came over with bread sticks too! G-Ma read our tarot cards after we ate.

My reading dealt exactly with what I've been dealing with. It didn't tell me anything I didn't know and it didn't necessarily predict my future, but it gave me hope that if I continue diligently working through my stress, I will come out blessed. I must stay strong, and have faith God is going to see us through this and onto something better.

DH's reading was spot on as well, dealing with his unemployment stress. Plus you could directly see connections between both our readings. It was very cool and cosmic. It affirmed that we have a strong  marriage, but we knew that. :)

We introduced G-Ma to Wii Sports Resort, and she brought back our Wii Fit Plus. I'm looking forward to giving it a try now. Gold's Gym is great, but I need variety or I get bored quickly.

Speaking of boredom, I'm getting cabin fever big time. Its been so bitterly cold, its unhealthy for me to be out in it. We broke down and turned up the heat from 60 F to 64 F. I'm sure I don't want to see our heating bill, but hopefully we'll find a way to pay it.

I'm pouring over garden magazines and catalogs, planning for spring. Our beloved next door neighbor is fighting cancer and together we are planning more organic gardens. I'm ready to go bigger and better, and with her help we will. Together we're both saying we don't care if we have any grass left in our yards! It can all be organic gardens!!

G-Ma also found mad money rolling across a parking lot. She treated us to lottery tickets with it. We dreamed about what we would do if we won.

I personally don't need a big house or furnishings. All I want is land and lots of it!! I would grow, grow, grow everything from veggie gardens, to berry patches, to apple orchards and pumpkin patches. I'd have a Christmas tree forest along with wild land for critters of all shapes and sizes.

I'll have to wait longer for that dream. We only hit a few numbers, but it was enough to buy us lunch!

Can't...get....warm. Too...cold....out... for...humans!!

Rambling, Thinking It Through.....

Crazy night last night, literally. I was such a mixture of emotions. Its unsettling how one moment I can feel calm, cool, collected and the next, my world is falling apart.

I tried to find my balance but by the week's end, I had lost it. Interestingly it was when I had scheduled in free time that it crashed around me. I guess when I don't have to have my game face on, it is safer to let go. I'd rather spend my free time in a happier mood though.

It was the typical "I can't do it all" demon. Wife, mother, worker, within these roles lie so many responsibilities, and each one I want to give my best to. Why is it easier for me to look at what I didn't get done, instead of what I have accomplished?

I do think its better to continually examine myself and question how I can do better, but why do I have to beat myself up in the process?

Today is a new day. I have another chance to get it right.

I'll give you a 5 gallon bucket and a 3 gallon bucket. You can have all the water you need, but nothing else. How can you measure exactly 4 gallons of water into the 5 gallon bucket?

I sipped this cocoa as slowly as I could without it turning cold. Now I guess I have to get dressed and head out into the snow. Sigh........

First Day Back To Reality

I can't say I was looking forward to going back to work after spending two glorious weeks at home, but DH made it a little easier by going out at 4:30am and starting my car for me. We're currently having bitter cold, single Fahrenheit digit temperatures so this small gesture was actually quite huge. He did not have to get out of our warm, cozy love nest to do that for me.

When I got to work, I knew I'd have a pile waiting, and I knew I would not be getting out at my usual time, but all that work did make the time go by quickly. Still, I'm grateful the rest of the week, I'm working closing shifts. Don't let my name fool you. I'm not a morning person.  

It was great coming home to have lunch with my family and after a little digesting, I managed to throw a few punches in Gold's Gym Wii. I've decided now that I'm not working a crazy flip flop schedule anymore, I have no excuse not to exercise.

I did a little more onion research. The layers are really leaves.

I tried to get into Pride and Prejudice and Zombies, but 7 chapters into it, I'm still not hooked. I can't stop comparing Jane's brilliant writing to Mr. Grahame-Smith's, even though I remind myself to have a sense of humor. I'm really hard to please though when it comes to fiction.

I'm hoping I can convince my family to brave the cold this coming weekend and do a little eagle watching. Its about an hour's drive from us, but I need to make a nature connection. I miss our forest hikes. Its easy to hide away indoors when its this cold, but you reach a point where cabin fever starts to make you a little stir crazy. I know watching bald eagles plunge into the river will lift my spirits.

Also on the agenda, I need to take some time and write down goals. I'm working my way through 48 Days To The Work You Love by Dan Miller. (If my boss is reading this- don't panic. I'm mostly reading this book for Sean.)

I've also just finished Secrets Of A Buccaneer Scholar by James Marcus Bach, and I have to say, its made me an even better unschooler. It reaffirmed everything I felt to be true.

Happy New Year!

We stayed in last night, enjoying the nest. The boys had friends over, gaming in the ManCave until supper time. DH & I feasted on pizza while the boys decided to use their free McDonald Value Meal coupons, so everyone was happy. The boys went back to gaming while DH & I became couch potatoes.

They joined us in time to watch Travis Pastrana jump his rally car. Watching daredevils on ESPN on New Year's Eve is becoming a tradition now.

I barely made it to midnight. Took flack for that. We did two countdowns. The first was on Fox I think, and then DH turned on MTV and one minute late, they were replaying the ball drop. I'm surprised there is no local coverage. I can remember growing up around Chicago where WGN always did a countdown.

I'm not making any resolutions, but I am dreaming up plans for 2010. Of course the obvious dream is the end of unemployment/job stress and continuning health improvements, but I'm also focusing on on life's little pleasures. I want to go bigger and better with our garden this spring, along with purging and organizing the Sleepyhouse. I have to get back to some kind of creative outlet.

I know I should avoid endeavors that require money, but I'm really hoping we can start traveling. The boys are at an age now where this would be so great for them. I know we will find a way to make it to my husband's family reunion this July, but there are so many other places I wish we could travel to.

I'll keep praying and we'll see where the Lord takes us. For now, I can count my blessings and stay positive looking forward. Its within our power to make this a Happy New Year.

Happy New Year!! I'm hoping the fresh start brings us prosperity.

What's Stranger This Onion Or The Fact I'm Blogging About It?

I'm easily amazed.

I sliced an onion for our lunch. A few hours later I noticed the half we didn't eat, had something  beginning to stick out. As more time went by, the core began to stick out even further. By the end of the day, it looked like this.

It was fascinating to me. I asked my family why they thought the onion was doing this. They all though it must have to do with pressure and moisture leaving the cut onion.

As I studied it even further, I began to wonder if many onions have two cores like this. How exactly do onions grow?

The layers remind me of tree rings. Can you tell the age of an onion based on its layers? Maybe not in years of course, but what triggers the onion to grow another layer? How does the layer count relate to onion size?

What if I push down on one of these columns? (It stopped "growing" out from the onion.)

Can I make this happen again? I don't recall other onions I've sliced doing this all that often, but have I ever taken the time to notice?

It's beautiful to me, something not commonly seen. It doesn't take much to set my mind sailing. Each question I have leads me to more wondering.

How will learning so much about onions help me? I don't know yet. All I know is onions have engaged my attention for the moment. That's part of the beauty of unschooling. I can become an onion expert for the sole reason of, it satisfies my natural curiosity. My onion obsession is all mine!

An Unschooled Reading Success Story

DS14 recently told me, he likes reading huge novels because, "..it feels like I'm on a journey."

He's there, where I wanted him to be. He reads for pleasure and the bigger the book, the more he enjoys it.

When I was his age, someone would have to force me to read a book by making it a required assignment for school. I couldn't really enjoy reading it either, because of the fact the assignment would always have a timed deadline. I would always be thinking, I have to get through this book, not, what can this book give to me?

My son has discovered the dilemma of book lovers- you don't want to finish reading because then its over, but at the same time, you want to see how the story ends! I think this is one reason why he chooses long stories. When he picks up a plus sized book, he doesn't think, "Ugh, this will take me forever to read." He instead thinks, "YES! This is a story that will last me awhile!"

We don't give him time limits. We've instead given him the freedom to read when he wants to, as much as he wants to. He usually chooses to read when the rest of us go to sleep and the house is quiet, although I've caught him unable to put the book down during other times as well. We usually allow him to sleep until he wakes up, knowing he went to bed after reading late. (Plus I strongly feel teenagers need extra sleep.)

The thing I struggle with now is, I have so many books I wish he would read. Isn't this true for all of us book lovers though?

"So many books, too little time!"

I think I will copy another unschooler friend's idea. She has a bookcase designated for books she hopes her family will read eventually. I need a shelf for myself too. I'm constantly thinking I don't have anything to read, only to discover later, I really did.

For the record, my son did not use any reading curriculum to learn to read. He learned to read because we read to him. Simple as that, I kid you not. He would have been considered a late reader because he didn't start reading on his own until around age 8, but within the year, he was reading chapter books. When he was ready, it happened really fast.

We don't require him to write book reports or test his reading comprehension. Informally, he'll simply share with us what's going on in the story and what he thinks of it. Often we'll read the same book so we can share and discuss it together. Through our discussions, its very apparent his comprehension is strong, and he finds inspiration through reading.

His recent "journey" comment also shows me he's enjoying the whole process, not just the result.

I'm going to keep praying. I don't know where I would be without it!

Christmas Notes....

(The photo is the fresh veggie tray I made for our Christmas gatherings.  I copied the idea from a friend, and it went over very nicely. Wish I still had one to munch on now!)

DMIL spoiled us rotten!! We wouldn't have had such a nice Christmas without her. Unfortunately, she isn't feeling well, and she headed home early. We're hoping and praying she'll feel better soon, and hopefully we'll see her next weekend.

DS10 got the one thing he put on his Christmas list, Modern Warfare 2. G-Ma also got him a t-shirt with the game on it. I'm predicting he'll want to wear nothing else but this t-shirt the next few weeks.

DS14 pretty much got everything on his list as well. Of course they've been spending most of their time in the Man Cave, gaming. I expected this, but DH & I have no energy to do anything else, so for now this works.

Last night DH & I did try out our new family present, Wii Resort. We played Frisbee golf and it was a lot of fun. Of course it doesn't take much energy to flick your wrist. LOL!

Christmas Eve was great, having DH's aunt's family over, along with G-Ma, but I was so tired by the end of the night. I suppose getting up at 4:00am caused that.

Christmas Day was awesome too and with my sister hosting my family's gathering, it was wonderful not having to travel more than 3 blocks away. We're used to having to travel during Christmas in order to be able to see extended family.

I'm glad we've had a couple of days after Christmas to recoup. All the partying has left us feeling run down. I'm giving myself one more day of rest, and then I'll try to get back into a routine.

I will not allow post holiday depression to sneak in. We're grilling burgers, spreading out the beach blanket in the living room and watching cheesy horror movies tonight. I want to remember what summer feels like.

My News Interview

My sister found my news interview on the station's website. If you're interested, I thought I'd post the link here. Once you are on the NBC15 news Morning Show page, scroll along the video titles on the right side of the page and click on "Swim West Interview 12/24."

I want to point out, 10 seconds before the LIVE interview, she leaned over to me and said, "Tell me what this is about. I have no idea."

Apparently no one had told her what to ask me. Days before the interview, the producers sent us questions and we sent back answers. I was prepared for something entirely different!!

My husband thinks it still went well, but I have trouble watching it!! LOL!! My heart still races when I think about it! I feel badly I couldn't get in the information my boss was probably hoping for, but it really wasn't my fault the news lady didn't know the prepared questions.

I thought those of you whom I've never had the chance to meet in person, may like to know what I sound like. :) 

http://www.nbc15.com/morningshow

Merry Christmas!!! Hoping everyone has the chance to share peace, love, health and happiness with their loved ones!

~I'm trying not to freak out about the potential ice storm approaching. I'd rather deal with a foot of snow than a layer of ice. The timing couldn't be worse.

Random Ramble................................

Worked at home today, all day. After months of working 5 days a week, it was wonderful to not have to drive in, yet I kept feeling like I didn't belong at home.

DS10.11 is going crazy with impatience. Christmas can't come fast enough. I'm sure he's waiting for one present in particular, and then we'll never see or hear from him until he decides to eat.

Yumi is having trouble keeping to her diet. She's only allowed 1/2 cup a day because she needs to lose a few kitty pounds. We can't feed her diet food because she's allergic to corn. We feed her a grain free kibble, 1/4 cup in the morning and 1/4 cup at night. For some reason, she's been devouring it so quickly. I don't get it. She's been hunting for more food and we find her in places she shouldn't be.

I made soft ginger reindeer cookies. I noticed one pretzel antler missing and worried it was the cat. Thankfully DS10.11 confessed, and I didn't have to throw the batch away thinking the cat had possibily licked them all!

Better Late than Never Christmas cards should go out tomorrow. I tried to send cards to only loved ones we won't see the next few weeks. (I'll be so glad when survival unemployment mode is over.)

I have to pick up a few last minute gifts tomorrow, and my paycheck. In reserve order.

I can't believe they are forcasting rain for Christmas Eve and snow for Christmas Day. To me that translates to ICE!!

DS14 told me why watches are made with quartz. Turns out the vibrations from quartz have the amazing abilitily to keep accurate time.

Surprised Russell didn't win, yet completely understand why Natalie did. Next season's twist sounds really interesting- Villians vs. Heroes

I really shouldn't wait for the end of the day to drink water, but I get so busy during the day, I forget to drink.

Chocolate covered pretzles had to be invented by a woman. Whoever she was, I thank her immensely!!

I forgot to tell Santa I need chocolate covered cranberries too.

My mind is now wandering in a dangerous chocolate direction. I better go find a better distraction.

Make Love, Not War.....

We've just realized. We have root beer and vanilla ice cream in the Sleepyhouse. Who wants a root beer float?

I Don't Feel Ready Yet...

If my house were clean, I'm sure I'd feel better. I probably will spend the better part of tomorrow cleaning. Its my only day I won't have to work up until Christmas Eve. Tempted by the potential for an increase on my paycheck, I've decided, like a moron, to cover a co-worker's shift on Sunday. Didn't I just tell myself I'd work on better late than never Christmas cards?

Since I began working at the pool, I'm used to taking off the last two weeks while we are in between lesson semesters. It always meant I could relax at the end of the year and enjoy the holidays. This year however, being in unemployment survival mode, I'm choosing to pick up extra shifts through the end of the year. I'll take off Christmas Eve through the weekend, but I've created a pile of projects to keep me busy otherwise.

Of course as we get closer to family arriving, I'm realizing, I shouldn't have agreed to this. I would feel better if I had more time to clean, bake and get into party mode. Although I tend to want to go overboard, so perhaps scaling back my preparation time is a good thing after all. I need to remember I have a house full of men who can help me clean too!

Christmas Eve, I'll be getting up earlier than any human should, and preparing to go on the local news. If you pick up NBC 15 out of Madison, you'll see me being interviewed regarding our family swim food drive. My boss couldn't make it and our marketing person didn't feel comfortable going on camera.

I'm doing it, because frankly, when it comes down to it, I don't care how fat and old I'll look on camera. I just want people to bring food donations for the food pantry!!!  I've come to really understand why so many families have to rely on food pantries.

I'm asking my husband to go with me, and I think the boys should go too because I could then turn the opportunity into a homeschooling "field trip."

"Let's check out a TV station kids!"

I'm sure they are not going to want to get up that early, and plus someone has to stay home and tape it. DH is already predicting it will be the most requested video during our Christmas visits with extended family.

... MUST FOCUS ON THE GREATER GOOD!

... MUST FOCUS ON THE FACT THIS HUMILIATION IS FOR CHARITY...

I probably shouldn't bring my kids because they are already hoping something crazy happens and the clip ends up on You Tube. I could just see them trying to make me laugh off camera or something worse.

I don't need 15 minutes of fame via a viral video. Really, I don't. I'm not going to scream if a lizard jumps on me or puke my guts out. Its going to be a boring lady, who needs a haircut and a little more makeup, talking about how you can swim for free if you bring in two non-perishable food donations.

It's not like its my first time on TV. I was on Bozo's Circus and even got to play Bozo's Buckets! Thankfully VCR's weren't around back then!!

Rosemary White Bean Soup -aka Dawn's Kicking Cancer Out Soup

Description:
I adapted this recipe from the book, What To Eat During Cancer Treatment by the American Cancer Society. I make a batch and shared it with my favorite neighbors. It is really delicious and so easy!

Ingredients:
1 T olive oil
1 onion, chopped
1 carrot, chopped
1 celery stalk, chopped
3-4 garlic cloves, smashed and chopped (I really like garlic.)
4 C no sodium chicken stock
4 cans of Great Northern beans, size 15 oz, rinsed and drained
1-2 t dried Rosemary
pepper to taste

Directions:
In your soup pot, heat the oil. Add the onions, celery and carrots. Add the garlic and chicken stock and 3 cans of beans. Add the Rosemary and a few dashes of pepper. Bring the soup to a boil and then lower the heat and simmer 20 minutes. Puree half of the soup in a blender, and then add it back to the pot with the last can of beans.

I prefer to leave the soup with some veggies and beans intact, for added color and texture, but you could just decide to puree the whole batch of soup if that's what you'd prefer.

I had to get out....

I was beginning to get cabin fever and feeling stuck in a rut. So after my morning shift, I came home, woke the teenager and announced we were all going sledding. It was awesome outside, 34 degrees and romantically foggy.

To my delight, DH joined us and to my amazement, no one got hurt! We had the hill to ourselves, and we all raced down several times.

I discovered a great way to avoid a back injury is to ride down feet first, on your belly. This worked great for me until the sled turned 180 degrees, and I ended up going down the hill face first! How I avoided a white wash, I don't know.

The sledding turned a bit commando when we discovered it was great fun to throw snowballs at who ever was riding down the hill at the moment. You think it would be easy, but you have to account for speed and distance when you pitch.

After sledding we came home and made snow creatures, using natural materials we could find in the yard. The snow was perfectly packy, yet heavy.

All the fresh air and exercise felt great. Now I think I'll throw some chicken in the crock pot for supper and try and have a relaxing afternoon.

"A child whose life is full of the threat and fear of punishment is locked into babyhood. There is no way for him to grow up, to learn to take responsibility for his life and acts. Most important of all, we should not assume that having to yield to the threat of our superior force is good for the child's character. It ...is never good for anyone's character." - John Holt

Thoughts From My Unschooling Heart....

Fridays are Fresh Days!!!! I can use this weekend to turn things around. I'm hoping it climbs to double digits, and then we can start to enjoy all this snow we have. I would love to take the boys sledding, build snow forts and snow people. It wasn't fair we got 18 inches of snow followed by single digit temperatures.

I have to reconnect with my family.  Working these extra hours, I feel like I'm missing out. I know they've been supervised by DH, but I have no idea what the boys have been learning. This has been an adjustment for me.  When I was home with them more, I was privileged to share in their daily questioning more. Now Dad is facilitating their way to answers.

As Unschoolers, we don't use lessons plans and assignments. At any given moment inspiration could strike and take them in any direction. If I'm not around, I won't be able to see where they are going. I know DH has been here for them, but now I feel the need to play catch up this weekend.

I think when you decide to unschool, you have to make a commitment to take a huge interest in what interests your children. You have to share the experiences with them, otherwise you won't know what they have learned.

If we did "school" at home, I suppose it would be easy for me, being absent, to use the little time I am around to peek at workbook pages and completed assignments to see progress, but that reality depresses me. I'd rather go directly to my children than rely on any paperwork's interpretation. Notebook paper has no soul.

For now, I should take comfort in the fact DH is home, and this is a blessing. As the boys transition into young men having more access to their father is perfect timing. I need to relinquish my role because they don't need to be "mothered" so much anymore.

I just can't help but feel this last minute panic, "Wait! Don't grow up so fast!! I have more to tell you!!!"

I can't believe its Thursday today. The blizzard seems to have taken away two days from me. It will be great to see our friends, and its wonderful knowing I'm two shifts away from the weekend!

Soft Gingerbread Cookies

Description:
I may have written about this recipe when I made them into reindeer using pretzels and M&M candies, but I wanted to have this recipe where I can easily find it, because its a family favorite around Christmas time.

For more fun, you can shape the dough into ovals and use candy and pretzels to make reindeer, but this year DH requested simple icing and DS14 said circles with M&Ms were fine. We were out of pretzels.

Ingredients:
1 C butter
1 C sugar
2/3 C molasses
2 eggs
2 t baking soda
1 t ginger
1 t nutmeg
4 C flour

M&Ms and icing to decorate

Directions:
Preheat oven to 350F

Cream butter and sugar together. Add molasses. Beat in eggs. Stir together baking soda, ginger, nutmeg and flour. Mix the dry with the wet. Form dough balls and flatten with your hand.

If using M&M's, press into the dough before baking.

Bake for 12-14 minutes

Snowed in and loving it!

Doesn't this cat realize, if she insists on sitting on my lap for warm, I'm going to have to pet her?

All I Want For Christmas...

Tonight during supper, DS10 asked me what I wanted for Christmas. My initial response was to tell him nothing. I have everything I need. I know I said this because I didn't want him to worry about why there will be nothing under the tree for me this year. He did get me thinking though. What do I want for Christmas? A few real good things do come to mind.

1. A job for DH- Because I want him to feel valuable again. Its really starting to take a toll on him emotionally, and my husband is such a great man, he doesn't deserve this.

2. A job for DH - Because unemployment is impossible for a family of 4 to live on.

3. A job for DH - Because I'm worried every time I start to feel sick, or its starting to snow like crazy, I could miss out on work. If I don't work, I don't get paid.

4. A job for DH - Because I have two weeks left, and then my hours will be cut. My boss has been great, but the reality is, she has other staff that also need hours, and the winter session is less busy.

5. A job for DH - Because I want to pay bills on time.

6. A job for DH - Because I really understand now more than ever, how important it is NOT to carry debt.

7. A job for DH- Because house repairs are popping up, and we don't have the money to fix them.

8. A job for DH - Because car repairs are popping up, and we don't have the money to fix them.

9. A job for DH - Because even though that snowman shower curtain was so cute, I can't justify giving up $20 for it.

10. A job for DH - Because warmer footwear for winter would be nice.

11. A job for DH - Because I can't remember the last time I had my haircut.

12. A job for DH - Because I can't cut their hair either! (They still allow me to, but my men deserve to look good.)

13. A job for DH - Because Yumi is over due for her vaccines.

14.  A job for DH - Because I don't want to be nervous my debit card will be declined at the grocery store.

15. A job for DH - Because it will break my heart if we can't afford to travel to the family reunion next summer.

16. A job for DH - Because I miss being able to create art.

17. A job for DH - Because I want to buy pomegranates, and they're over $2 a piece.

18. A job for DH - Because DH hasn't enjoyed his popcorn fix in over 8 weeks.

19. A job for DH - Because I don't want to have to move out of our Sleepyhouse.

20. A job for DH - Because seeing the doctor or dentist is so expensive.

21. A job for DH - Because we're missing out on memories we could be making.

22. A job for DH - Because the ongoing uncertainty is stealing bit by bit, what little joy we can muster up.

Happy St. Nick Day!

No Time For Cohesive Thoughts, Just A Relaxing Ramble....

I craved a nectarine the other day, but working my way through a case of Clementines is wonderful as well. I'm sorry oranges, compared to Clemmies, you're only good for juice.

I can feel the autodidact in me returning. After all the stress its good to know she's still in there, waiting patiently. On the list- learning HTML code, landscaping for birds, the art of persuasive speech, mediating, herbal remedies, and figuring out how to use your passions as a means of financial support.

Yesterday was the first day I felt the cold bite me. There's a point where comfortable, refreshing chilly, turns into, "Hey, this hurts!" I need to rediscover the art of layering.

I also need to clean out the closet and find those gloves!

Despite the facts, we still have hope. That is a result of prayer I'm sure.

Also I'm amazed at how prayer and a little holistic effort is keeping my health in check. Felt the verge of a sore throat coming last night, and I thought about smashing up and eating raw garlic. I decided since this was DH's birthday weekend, I'd spare him. I took apple cider vinegar and honey instead. Its a 50/50 blend, and I gargle a spoonful before swallowing it down. I also add a teaspoon to a glass of water and drink it that way. Maybe its the Clementines as well, but this morning, no sore throat! Yeah!

Going to really have to try hard to avoid sugar and this will help as well. Its going to be a challenge this weekend. Kringles are on sale at the Pig!! $3.99!!! I told myself though since I've already baked not only a cake, but also brownies, there's no need for Kringle, no matter what a great price that is.

My plan for enjoying DH's birthday dessert is to allow myself one bite of cake and one brownie. If I'm going to indulge, it might as well be something that I really enjoy. Although the cake is tempting, Fudgy Ghiradelli brownies are where its at!

I love how when I asked DH what I should make for his birthday, he said to let the boys decide. One son said vanilla cake, the other said chocolate brownies, so now we have both!

I think I hear the birthday man waking up. I better go pounce!

My computer time is so limited, but its more important DH can use it for job searching. Miss you all, but hopefully soon, I'll have the chance to catch up! Have a great weekend!

Thursday 13

1. BRRRR!!! Its cold and its trying to snow. Winter has arrived and I can't fly south.

2. My nest is far from clean, but I've invited friends over anyway.

3. Why can't I make oatmeal cookies?

4. Two more shifts and its weekend time!

5. Why is Yumi trying to eat Christmas ornaments?

6. Clementines are here!! Is it possible to eat too many?

7. Doug at Target was very helpful.

8. I don't care how much fiber they add. Froot Loops are mostly sugar and are NOT a health food! Deceiving young children like that, they should be ashamed!

9. I know how to drive Mr."Geepus" crazy, making him recalculate. I'm going to hear his voice in my sleep, "Recalculating....recalculating..."

10. I do find it a bit alarming I trust technology to keep me from getting lost.

11. Our very first ever fruitcake arrived! Thanks Uncle Pete & Auntie Barb!

12. The condensation on our windows is terrible. Does this mean our house is humid or our windows are shot?

13. I better get moving. The wolves are circling the computer.

Hot cocoa time!!

I have to wake up in 6 hours. I don't know how much longer I can flip flop opening and closing. I miss the sleep!

Trees up, lights are strung...now hopefully we'll get the ornaments hung!

Horror movie marathon tonight. So far we've watched Phenomenon with a really young Jennifer Connolly, Killer Klowns From Outer Space and now its Bad Taste.

Made it all day without cutting into that Kringle! I won't tell you though what I ate at our second Thanksgiving feast!

How This Radical Unschooling Parent Disciplines

We had used "Time Out" for our oldest, but when Jared came along, "Time Out" didn't work for him. We knew spanking was abusive, but if Time Out wouldn't work, what were we to do? I prayed about it, and then the answer came to me. Give this child a mission.

Whenever toddler Jared would misbehave, he needed understanding and direction. It wasn't about trying to get him to change, but understanding why he was acting they way he was. How could we show him how to respect others and make better choices with his reactions?

God told me, "Give Jared a job." It wasn't about redirection so much as it was about giving Jared the opportunity to feel important and purposeful.

"Jared, could you please help Mommy with the garbage? Could you help Mommy with..." He took to it instantly. He loved helping out. It gave him a sense of purpose. It gave him the self confidence that comes with responsibility. Jobs were never about punishment, but were opportunities to show how valuable he was.

I realized this little guy just needed to feel respected, and he wanted to feel powerful. He wanted to be able to do what his big brother and his parents could do.

As he grew older, the misbehavior ceased, and we gave him more choices. For example, we had given him ownership of the task of unloading the dishwasher. He knew it had to be done every day, but he could pick when he did it.

If I'm worried he's not going get to it in a timely fashion, I'll ask him, "At what time do you think you'll be able to unload the dishwasher because I'd like to load in the dirty dishes before I leave for work."

He'll choose a time and ask, "Will 10:30 be okay?" If it works for me, great, if not, I'll explain why.

"Well, I have to leave by 10:30 so that won't work for me."

"OK, how about I unload the dishes at 9:30?"  We have a respectable, negotiation. No nagging, no attitudes, just two people working out together a solution, because they love and respect each other.

We've relied on respect, love and understanding rather than yelling or hitting to teach our children expectations of proper behavior. When we were first time parents, we used "Time Outs" for toddler Jake because that was the advice of our physician, but Jared really taught us the best way to discipline.

I know I've offended friends when I tell them spanking is abusive. I personally believe it should be against the law.  I guarantee you if I slapped a kid's butt and that kid was not mine, I would be arrested and forced to register as a sex offender, but why if I'm the parent of the child is this acceptable? If someone touches, let alone slaps, my backside without my permission, I will feel molested and sexually harassed. It will not motivate me to correct my behavior, but rather I will feel scared or pissed off.

I have some friends who try to use scripture to justify their abusive discipline, but if they would read the original text, they would see the "rod" translates to "leading the direction of", not hitting. Smart shepherds don't beat their sheep because it would hurt and damage them.

What I don't understand is why some parents believe fear works. If you try to control your children using fear and intimidation, I can promise you those same kids, when they do have a problem are not going to come to you for help. They are going to seek out support from those who don't pose any threat.

I feel so blessed knowing my boys know there is nothing they can't come to us with. There is no question they can't ask, no problem they can't share. They feel completely safe with us and know we are going to support them. They aren't going to get "in trouble" but rather they will find a listening, sympathetic ear.  They don't have to lie to avoid punishment, but rather they know they can be completely honest with us.

DS10.10

I wanted to add this photo to DS10's Multiply album, but it didn't work. Now I can't see any of his photos in that album. I'll deal with that problem later. Multiply seems to be not working well for me the past few days.

I took this photo yesterday at G-Mas. I thought it was the perfect example of how different DS10 is from anyone else. Nothing about this child has been conventional. He is truly a unique, wonderful, human being.

A typical kid would use the pillow for their head. Not my son. His head is on the floor and the pillow is for his feet! Also, the typical kid would probably play DS sitting upright.

Jared has always kept me guessing. From the moment I learned he was going to be a boy, I had assumed incorrectly, that he would be exactly like his big brother. He came out looking completely different, yet still resembling DH & I. DNA is fascinating.

Where as Jakob was an easy going, kicking back and taking it all in kind of baby, Jared was the polar opposite. I'll never forget the first time he looked at me. I knew he was a thinker. I just didn't know how different his thinking would be!

Jared can come up with the correct answer, but when he tries to explain to me how he figured it out, he loses me. His thought pattern process is abstract to me.

I thank God we've been able to allow him to learn from life, at home and in the world around us. Jared doesn't fit into a mold. When something interests him, it becomes an obsession and he needs to be given the freedom to truly explore something to his heart's content. 

I'm trying really hard not to cut into the Kringle. Its pecan. Our favorite. My MIL sent it home with us and its still a perfect oval. If I cut into it, I won't be able to stop. Every time I pass it, I will cut off another inch! I must refrain. We have another Thanksgiving feast to chow tonight. For those who don't know, a Kringle is a special Danish pastry and near where we live, in Racine,Wisconsin they make the best ones! www.kringle.com

Thankful Thursday 13

I'm thankful for....

1. Valerian root - after several restless nights, finally got in a good 8 last night.

2. Out of 6 pairs of warm socks, I could at least find one pair this morning.

3. A husband who does laundry

4. My immune system

5. My flexible job and a boss who would do anything she could for me!

6. The mortgage will be paid for December!

7. Rhodes Texas rolls - easy and tasty when I have no time to bake from scratch

8. I didn't have to cook and clean for this holiday weekend.

9. My Mom In Law who is treating us to a Thanksgiving feast today!

10. Chocolate chip pie!

11. A husband who completely takes care of me when I shut down due to stress!

12. My family!

13. A Heavenly Father who never fails me! (I saved the best for last.)

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

Ringing bells today for the Salvation Army. This year I promised the boys an indoor spot so we're inside a JCPenney's at a large mall. We'll treat ourselves to a late lunch and then it will be off to work for me.

"Curiosity is a survival skill for creatures like us who live by our wits, because we can't predict , in an open and complex world, everything we will need to know later on." - James Marcus Bach

Woke up slow and still moving at a snail's pace. Its a good thing. I'm enjoying several mugs of tea and really great books. Although a hike in the woods would have been nice, I don't want to be shot.

Edible Therapy

Today was a better day. DH is still missing his sense of humor, but when all else fails, make comfort food.

Our uncle gave us a link to the .99 Cent Chef. On his blog, he had directions on how to make Krispie Kreme doughnuts at home.

It was my first time ever making home made doughnuts, but not DH's. He made them once, when he was in middle school, when he was home alone. It did not end well.

I know he was nervous, but we took every precaution. I had a large lid ready as well as the fire extinguisher. I wore long oven mitts and used long handled sticks to turn the doughnuts. DH was on the glaze station.

They came out really good, but then again, when is a fresh, hot doughnut not delicious? We may make them again on Christmas or New Years.

Maybe it was the smell of the oil, but after I had finished frying the doughnuts, DH started slicing up potatoes. He slices them very thin and long, and fries them to a crispy, yet still meaty finish. They are awesome.

French fries happen to be DS10's favorite food, and he was over the moon eating dad's fries. DH told us when Grandpa used to make them, they were always eaten before they made it to anyone's plate.

Earlier, I made DH take me to the library where we loaded up on free books, movies and CD's. To my delight, I scored James Marcus Bach's new book, Secrets Of A Buccaneer Scholar. I had just read his interview in Home Education Magazine and last week I heard him on NPR radio. Now if only I can find the time to read it.

Actually, I know this week will be a short one work wise, and that's a mixed blessing. I'll enjoy the extra time with my family, but it also means I'll miss out on 2 days worth of work. When you work part-time, there is no holiday pay or sick leave.

Tomorrow I'm excited we may hit temperatures in the 60's! For Wisconsin in November this is outstanding! I'm hopeful we can find some place to hike.  We'll need to after what we've enjoyed eating tonight! We should probably open the windows too and let the nest air out one last time before the deep freeze comes.

I'm off to get into pajamas and finish watching the Japanese movie, Pulse. Its one of my favorite scary movies.  Catch you later!  

I'm up early. Its so beautiful outside. Everything is frosty and the sun is beginning to burn through the fog. Its looks so magical. I'm really going to try and make this a good day!