Crazy night last night, literally. I was such a mixture of emotions. Its unsettling how one moment I can feel calm, cool, collected and the next, my world is falling apart.
I tried to find my balance but by the week's end, I had lost it. Interestingly it was when I had scheduled in free time that it crashed around me. I guess when I don't have to have my game face on, it is safer to let go. I'd rather spend my free time in a happier mood though.
It was the typical "I can't do it all" demon. Wife, mother, worker, within these roles lie so many responsibilities, and each one I want to give my best to. Why is it easier for me to look at what I didn't get done, instead of what I have accomplished?
I do think its better to continually examine myself and question how I can do better, but why do I have to beat myself up in the process?
Today is a new day. I have another chance to get it right.
6 comments:
Dawn........I'm sitting here in complete awe because THIS was my week. I had a meltdown yesterday, in fact.
I hope you have a better day today.
I hope today will be better for ya. *hug*
We all have those days Dawn. Things build up then they have to release some how and its usually a meltdown, been there done that, several times lol. Today will be better.
Yes, we all have those days. When I left work yesterday, I left about 15 minutes early and just told everyone "I am fried".... this was a busy and difficult week for me. Maybe it's in the air or something. Just hang in there, and recognizing and talking about it is half the battle. You are awesome... keep thinking of all you DID accomplish. Hug yourself!! Hugs from me!
Hugs Across the Miles Dawn !! Being a Supermom and Superwoman is hard work and we all have those times when we meltdown and our brains say enough. Take some me time and focus on how amazing you are.
That can be mentally quite a hard piece of feelings to go through when your mood changes so suddenly and when the change is so great.
I've been to that too myself and I can relate to how you must feel. I hope things are running better for you these days.
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