Catching Up

It took 3 weeks, but my sore throat is finally recovering. I was just about to see the ear, nose, throat guy to discuss a tonsillectomy. I really did not want surgery. Once a year is enough. It usually doesn't take me that long to recover. I'm thinking I must have had back to back viral infections.

Our homeschooling conference last weekend was great. Every year my family volunteers to host several workshops, and this year all of them went very well. I do all this prep work and then worry whether people are having a good time or not. This year, I made a point to watch the participants more closely and seeing their smiles, hearing their laughter, it really registered to me they were all enjoying their time. It was inspirational to see these kids laugh and play with others they had just met.

I've been told my dad is recovering well from his strokes. At first I was really disappointed they missed he was having a stroke. He actually got sick in the hospital parking lot. My parents were planning on visiting the hospital's cafeteria, but my father suddenly became very dizzy and sick. My mom grabbed a wheel chair and pushed him across the hospital to the ER. They treated him for vertigo for several days before a physical therapist mentioned my dad's symptoms look like those of a stroke patient. An MRI confirmed my dad had suffered one big stroke at the back and base of his head, along with several other  mini-strokes. He has trouble walking now, but they are hopeful with therapy he will walk with a walker.

As my mom speaks with me concerning my dad, I'm recognizing how much I'm like him. I get very anxious when I'm not well. I hate that feeling of not being in control of my body. I can understand how this reaction only makes things worse, so I will have to learn how to truly chill out.

When my sore throat wasn't getting better, my frustration level was so high. I couldn't trust that my body was going to recover in its own time. Recovering from back surgery, you would of thought I would have learned this lesson!

I believe I need to actively practice chilling out and going with life's flow.

I found this journal and thought it would be an awesome plan, to purposely make note of how much awesome is around me each day.  So that's my new plan.