I'm officially riding the current now. The wind has left my sails.
Although it was great to see family at my uncle's funeral service, I know it was a very difficult day for many of them, saying goodbye.
I'm thinking about writing my own obituary. My uncle's pastor was newer to their church and although she did her best, listening to her I realized I want to write my own obituary so it includes more of a goodbye message to my loved ones. My obituary is also my last chance for ME to say who I was in this world, not necessary what others may have thought of me.
Of course now I'm thinking, why does my obituary have to be my defining moment? Shouldn't I be living my life right now in a way that everyone can see who I am and what they mean to me?
I'm coming away from my uncle's funeral realizing if I haven't already shared my love, my beliefs, my passions, my talents and laughter with the world before I leave, then I haven't really lived. If I can't leave my loved ones with an abundance of happy memories, no obituary, no funeral service, will ease their loss and help them remember who I really was.
I hope in the days to come, I can find my groove and get back to living my life with a celebratory spirit. Right now I do know its my husband and my children that create that spark in me when I'm feeling fizzled out. They are the inspiration that fuels my dreams. If I can make it to the weekend, spending time with them will recharge me.
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Sorry about your uncle. I never thought about what my obit would say.
Hope you find your missing groove. :)
There is nothing wrong with writing your own obituary, I know many people that have done that. One more day to go and then your family will bring back your groove.
Funerals do bring our own mortality to the surface. I've thought about writing my own obit, too, Dawn, just because others wouldn't say everything I would like said and left behind as my legacy (so to speak). Tough one. In some ways, we leave a legacy of our life through the blogs here on Multiply. Writing a "journal" is one way to know that your thoughts have been seen by friends and family. One more day, and you'll have your weekend. I hope you can find your groove again! I think you are an awesome and very special woman. Blessed to have you as a friend here! Hugs.
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Yes, funerals do make you think about things. At one point, I sat down and planned out my funeral -songs, poem, etc. I am not sure where that information is now. As I get older, I sometimes still think about coordinating my funeral (it would be so 'me ' to do that- lol). Then I think about living my life now and loving those around me.
We went to the best funeral, if a funeral can be called that, this summer. The sudden passing of a friend's husband was the cause for this sad occasion, but the minister shared GREAT stories about Billy. The stories showed his personality, his love for others and his zeal for life. THAT'S what I want to happen at my funeral. Yes there were tears there, but there was laughter as well. :o)
I didn't know Billy personally, but when I left I truly felt like I lost a great friend.
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