Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Thoughts Before Our Computer Crashes Again....

We're still adjusting to not having DH home with us. The computer will act up and I can't call out, "Honey, will you fix the computer?"

Its been raining pretty much everyday. I think our sugar snap peas are a loss but everything else seems to be tolerating the wet conditions.

The humidity is making it uncomfortable. I did my first walk inside on the treadmill and hated it. I'd much rather be outside.

Most of yesterday, I felt a stomach flu sick coming on. I wasn't sure if it was something I ate, delayed muscle aches from my fall, too much exercise in the heat, a bug bite, a chemical reaction or just a virus. I dragged myself to work and amazingly I started to feel better. How ironic is that? I'm just thankful it didn't turn into a full blown illness and it appears to be gone today.

Its been a challenge to try and not let the negativity around me effect my well being. I can't stand seeing the ones I love hurt and finding forgiveness for those who offend me has been my personal challenge this week.

I used to mourn the fact we couldn't make our family larger, having come from a larger family myself, but now I realize its not about the quantity of family you have but quality. I take comfort in knowing my boys will always have a close bond. 

A part of me really wants to say to certain people, "Look, you are really screwing up this relationship!" I don't say it though. I keep my mouth shut. You can't change people, nor can you make them understand you correctly if they choose to judge you first.

I want to live my life in peace, not stress. I can't mandate others do the same, but I can turn my back, choosing to face the positive influences instead.


4 comments:

Terri D'Orsaneo said...

You are so right, Dawn. Don't let anyone or anything steal your joy. Always look for peace and positives!!

Stef :) said...

Good thought Dawn. (((Hugs)))

Kelly M said...

All of us should live our lives in peace.

Nora inS.W.Missouri said...

thanks for sharing.