Honestly I don't know how I'm managing to plow through these days and nights. I will admit, I have/had a virus. The coughing progressed and each new day when I had hoped to be back at 100%, a new symptom emerged. Yesterday it was a cramping stomach and when I attempted to speak more than a few sentences, uncontrollable dry coughing. This is not good when your job requires you to converse with the public.
Tuesday night I drugged, I mean dragged, myself to work thinking I shouldn't be there. Then when sweet little thing, after sweet little thing, stopped for their after lesson hand stamps, I realized why I was sick in the first place. Child after child, hacking away in my face, its amazing I hadn't become sick sooner. (I do still feel the propane exposure pushed me over the edge.)
Wednesday night I drove to work with severe stomach cramps. I almost called DH and said I can't drive, come get me, but I kept thinking about how continuing straight down the road, mile after mile, was bringing me closer to getting this night over with. I sipped tea and the distraction of work took my mind off my stomach. The worse of it was when I'd be on the phone trying to speak when all I wanted to do was hack. If all I had to do was smile and nod, I'd be set no problem.
Tonight I'll make it because its the last night of the week for me, and then I'll have two entire days where I get to decide what I choose to do. If I feel like laying around watching junk TV, so be it!
Speaking of junk TV, I've been watching that Sister Wife show on TLC. Polygamy has always fascinated me. I can't fathom how anyone would want to share their spouse. I've always wondered why these woman settle for a part-time husband. To me that's not a true marriage.
I watched as wife #1 was trying to have a conversation with the husband, regarding her jealousy issues with wife#4 coming aboard. She asked him how he would feel if she was with another man. His response was very telling. He said his mind could not even fathom that because its "VULGAR" and against God. He also admitting saying this was hypocritical but he didn't care. He actually turned it back on her, saying she was the problem regarding the jealousy because it was her idea he hook up with wife #4.
I was disgusted. What a cruel, selfish man! He knows he is hurting wife #1, and probably #2 & #3 as well, but he doesn't care. His satisfaction comes first. He claims this is God's will, but I know God does not will for pain, jealousy and hurt for anyone.
I've always wondered why most of polygamy was so one sided, one man, many wives. Its just a way to put down women and create an artificial ego boost for the husband. Don't get me started on what I think it does to the children!
The women on this show continue to claim how much they agree with this lifestyle, but you can't help but see their constant pain and wonder why are they choosing to live this way?!
Well, I better get off my soapbox and get ready for the rest of my day.
8 comments:
I am sorry you are still so sick, and you are right that you most likely caught it from the kiddos! Glad you have a couple of days to rest and take care of yourself.
I agree with you completely about that show and polygamy. I haven't watched more than a couple minutes of it, because it so goes against all I believe. Jokingly, I've wished I had a wife now and then - but not that Joe had a second wife!! LOL I just need someone to do all the work I am expected to do - and, yes, I could hire that done (if we could afford it).
Dawn, I feel for you. It's not easy having to work while you are sick and feeling miserable, you should have been home resting so you could feel better. I have not watched Sister Wife but I saw them in an interview and I just couldn't understand it. First of all I don't believe in it and secondly I think it's disgusting. I hope that you feel a lot better after having a few days off, get some rest.
I finally caught all the episodes of Sister Wives this week. I find it very strange. Every wife knew what they were getting into before they married him. He really seems like an ass. What I want to know is how he affords it. I know wife #2 works. Wife #1 is in school. And he works in advertising. Are they on welfare? Who is paying for their health ins? I just have lots of questions that weren't answered LOL. I wonder if they'll be back for another season? I know I'll watch if they are. lol
Feel better soon
I hope you choose to do nothing during your time off and watch junk tv!! Recuperate!:o)
I have not watched the Sister Wives show, but saw them on Oprah the other day. I saw an excerpt of the show you talked about. Lots of folks do things in the name of God or saying it's His will yet they are sooooo wrong and people suffer because of it.:o(
I've never heard of Sister Wife. Is it a series like Big Love, or a documentary?
Feel better soon, Dawn. ((HUGS))
Praying you feel better soon.
Its a documentary/reality tv series following the lives of a real polygamist family in Utah. After the show premiered, the family has been threatened with arrests.
I guess the threats of being arrested for polygamy went away when it was found he was only legally married to the first woman he married and the others are his live-ins.
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