I just want to get to Thursday already. I've had too many Craptastic days, (thanks Maija for my new favorite word). I just want to surround myself with family distractions to take my mind off of the cold, dark depression. Its been said depression is anger without passion. I've found myself going between depression and anger, but either way, I can't seem to release it all yet.
I'm finding myself forgetting stupid things such as, chocolate chips. How does someone like me, an admitted chocolaholic forget chocolate chips? I had planned on making CHOCOLATE CHIP pies for the holidays so there I was at the store, buying pie crusts, butter, pecans, and brown sugar. How could I forget the main ingrediant and namesake of the dessert? I had the butter and sugars creamed, about to drop in the eggs when I realized I had no freaking chocolate chips!!! There's a reason God put me within a few blocks of a Piggly Wiggly.
I had gotten into the van with the sole purpose of returning the library stuff. I drove right past the return box and the library! To say I'm easily distracted these days is an understatement.
I have tons of work I could be doing for the pool, but I can't get to where I need to be to get that done. I'm hoping after Thanksgiving, I can focus more.
We had our first stuck on the ground, measurable snowfall. It looked pretty, but it wasn't fun to drive in. I was grateful the sun came out mid-day and melted it off the roads. I guess I really should remove our wilted, decaying pumpkins and bring out the Christmas lights.
I wasn't going to put out the lights this year, but my neighbor set up a small yard display and I changed my mind. Seeing the lights really does boost your mood.
I've been trying to write down all the things popping into the boys' minds for later research. Normalily, when I'm not moping around, I have no problem fueling their interests, but lately, its an accomplishment if I can get the laundry and dishes done.
Jared asked me when the first sky scraper was built. He wants to know how they repair cracks in windows that high off the ground. I know I should be planning a trip to Chicago now.
Jared also said he's added seeing the Northern Lights onto his bucket list. I hope we have some soon. I could always count on them when I lived in northern Minnesota, but I don't see them as often here in southern Wisconsin. We may have to plan a trip north. (In the meantime, I must get to the library and get books on sky scrapers and Northern Lights!)
Amazing, I haven't gotten sick yet. Its all around me, but for now, I just feel like crap emotionally. Maybe the Emergen-C and blueberry tea is helping, but I know it will catch up to me evenutally. I haven't been able to sleep well and I can't get warm enough.
I'm going to turn off. I need to stop thinking because when I do, I can't focus on one thing long enough to think it through. I need to go back on auto-pilot for awhile.
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I've always wanted to see the Northern Lights too. I'll add it to my Bucket list. This cold weather is hitting me hard too. I'm not sleeping well either + I am having a hard time getting warm. I'm hoping it passes soon. Curl up with some hot tea, a blankie + a good book or movie. ;)
People are sick here. Hubby has some kind of flu and he is miserable. He said his body never hurt so bad. And the winter blues are already starting. With the holidays around the corner I just had to start saying no to people. I'm not cooking something elaborate and I need help. I've been forgetful as well. Just too much on the plate. I had to start delegating and dealing with things being done half way. Kiss of death for a perfectionist but maybe this is what it is about. Not expecting myself and others to be perfect. It will get better Dawning. It has to. ;) Curling up sounds good to me too.
I think seeing the Northern Lights would be neat. Alex has expressed in them as well.:)
I hope things get better for you. :) I hate not being able to focus on what should be simple things..........:(
Hi! Sorry to hear you're down. I'm feeling pretty 'craptastic' too! lol! I heard depression is anger turned in on yourself. It kind of feels true. Have you tried full-spectrum light-bulbs? That does make a little difference, and if you shop around you can get them quite cheaply. I don't get on Multiply a lot anymore, but I've been thinking about you. Do you remember suggesting our boys write to each other? I'm still really struggling to get mine to write! I wondered if your boys might be interested in a network I set up? It's http://homeedteens.ning.com/
Anyway, hope to catch up soon. If I can get my act together, I may even post!
I'm sad to hear how you are still struggling, but it's understandable... though frustrating. (Understatement there I know.) Hopefully the holiday will help and that you have a wonderful time. The pies sound fabulous!
Craptastic is a great word isn't it! It isn't so great when you are having craptastic days though, sorry.
(((((Dawning)))))
I'm in the dumps, too. Wish we could get together and whine! : ) ....or bake...that'd be nice, too. : )
Hope you feel better and stay healthy.
Have you been to this site, they send e-mails about peak times to see the Northern Lights and other sky-things. http://spaceweather.com/ They say tonight should be a good time for High Latitude skywatchers to see auroras...I wonder how *high* they mean? ; )
Thanks for all your prayers and thoughts. Today is a better day than yesterday. It wouldn't be this way without all of you!
{{{hugs}}}
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