Trying Not To Feel Overwhelmed

I'm sure its just my immune system battling two foes at once, but I feel like I can't get my groove back.

Yesterday on my way to work, I stopped to see if Costco had any mattresses. After the drive in, I felt almost too tired and weak to walk around the giant wholesaler. I had to rest in my car with the air on for a few minutes. I treated myself to a frozen yogurt and that helped.

We decided not to sleep on the futon, and slept in our guest room instead. I slept okay, but I'm anxious to find a new mattress more than ever now. The Dick Van Dyke separate bed style is too depressing.

My spider bite is a little bit better, but I did wake up with muscle soreness. That could be from sleeping in a new bed though. My head cold reminded me its still lingering around too.

Its frustrating being run down when I have so much to do. I've decided before we get a new mattress, we need to clean and paint our bedroom. With DH working again, I'm on my own until the weekend arrives.

Today I'm hoping to drop the boys off at their friend's house and try to get some cleaning done. The reality is, I'll be more tempted to curl up in my Mary Tyler Moore bed and sleep until I have to leave for work.

Being run down, I feel even more, how important it is to have a clutter free world surrounding you. It's difficult enough to find the energy to clean, but knowing first you have move stuff around feels overwhelming. When you don't feel well, you want your nest to be a comforting place. Right now, I feel displaced.

I'll take things one step at a time. I'll try not to focus on the end result, but just on what's in front of me at the moment. I'll take those breaks when I need them and remember to listen to my body.

Am I Ready For Life's Challenges Today?

My cold virus never really seemed to be at full strength, and now I'm thinking it's the spider bite that's been zapping my energy. At first I thought it was just an itchy mosquito bite, not having seen any spiders crawling around me. It grew though to the size of a saucer plate and the itching turned to painful burning and tingling. My skin is hot to the touch in addition to being bright pink.

The past two nights, I haven't slept well because my arm keeps waking me up. This morning it feels maybe a little bit better, definitely not worse, less pink, and since there is no tissue degeneration, I'm going to ride it out, continuing to use topical treatments. Of course after having been in Kansas, I kept thinking, is it a brown recluse bite?! Thankfully its not turning black.

Tonight I won't sleep well either because our bed has sprung a leak. We have the kind of water bed that uses tubes, zipped inside a mattress shell. I don't think you can buy these types anymore. Apparently the leak was a slow one, making it worse. Water has trickled out for who knows how long, and now that its finally sponged through the mattress toppers we use, its safe to say our mattress shell is beyond salvaging.

The frugal girl in me is wondering, what if we dragged it out into the sun and used an entire bottle of Febreeze? The reality is, I don't want to have to worry about mold, this bed has expired its lifetime expectancy, and I'd look like a fool trying to use the carpet shampooing machine on a mattress. I should just bite the bullet and buy a new mattress.

This is stressful though, not fun. A mattress purchase is a huge decision. I want my DH to feel comfortable, and we're both used to having an adjustable mattress. The water tubes could be filled to your desired firmness.

DH also made a comment to me this morning about the timing of this happening now. We're grateful he's working, but why is something like this always happening before we can have a chance to save some money and get caught up?

Tonight we'll move the futon mattress on top of our box spring and see if we can make that solution work until we can find a new comfortable, yet affordable, mattress.

I wanted to start walking again today but we have a heat advisory and an air quality warning. I should stay inside, but the treadmill is boring plus, its hard to stay on the treadmill because its too easy to look around my house and see everything else I could/should be doing instead. Maybe dissembling the water bed will give me enough of a workout. The water tubes are pretty heavy and a challenge to drag to the bathtub.

Its just going to have be one of those days I go with the flow, do what I can, and not worry about everything going the way I want it to.