I have no patience for this. I want to be well now.
My family is taking excellent care of me. My husband is keeping track of when and what medications I take, which is good because I don't seem to have any sense of time. I'm in a medicated blur.
I was well enough to tag along shopping at the pet store for Christmas presents for our fur babies, and I also made it through having lunch out with my family. I was pretty tired after ward.
I am sleeping better which is wonderful. Where as before I would wake up when my pain meds ran their course, my husband now wakes me to take them.
I get up every few hours and walk a few laps of the house. Walking feels good but I feel weak and shaky.
Today was the day to change my bandage. Husband said it looks pretty narly. I'm glad I can't see it. He said I have a bio-port from the David Cronenberg movie eXistenZ. I love that he has a sense of humor and he's reminding me to have one as well.
Day 2's low point was emotional rather than physical. I am so frustrated not being able to do anything! I wanted to punch my first through the wall, which is not like me. I felt full of rage and frustration at my situation. I have no patience, and I'm having trouble finding hope I will be restored fully. At one point I thought the numbness was gone, but its back.
My husband helped me calm down and assured me I only needed to take it easy right now and give this time, much more time. It was only Day 2!
One last thing that's driving me crazy, not being able to take a shower and wash my hair. Sponge baths just aren't cutting it.
1 comment:
Dawn, I'm sure the medications aren't helping your emotional well being. They can dull the pain, but mess you up in other ways. Try this mantra....
Temporary inconvenience for permanent improvement.
You will heal, and you will be whole again. Let your loved ones show their love.
Wishing you a blessed Christmas and a very healthy and happy 2013.
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