Yumi was not happy she couldn't watch her birdie friends, but at least the drifting kept stray Tom away from her window. DH and I both stayed home from work. We actually had no choice. Local roads were closed due to drifting.
I don't know what our official inch total was, but it was the sustained 35 mph winds with gusts up to 70 that made it a brutal blizzard. All night long it was very noisy out there. We lost power a few times, but thankfully it went back on before we got too chilled without heat. We found pieces of the house being constructed next door in our yard, but thankfully our house appears to be intact.
Due to the storm, I ended up with two nights off. I don't want to think about the lower number on my future paycheck. It was nice to have the time off to heal up my thrown out shoulder. It still hurts when I take a deep breath, but at least I can find a comfortable position to sit or lay in now. I've been trying to stretch it out and drink more fluids to help with the inflammation.
The boys enjoyed having friends over due to schools being closed. It seems hard to believe its also time to see the homeschool posse, but tomorrow is Thursday already. These past two days seem to have flow by despite us being snowed in.
When I was feeling up to it, I studied more of the Gabriel Method. I'm having trouble visualizing my ideal body. I can't think of a time in my life when I didn't feel fat.
I know in high school I had a regular woman's body, but compared to my not yet "developed" friends, I always felt fat. DH says I should use a photograph of myself during that time, but mentally my high school body wasn't something I was comfortable with then, so why would it work for me now? I've thought about using magazine photos and plastering my face on them, but I don't like that idea. I'm just going to have to dig deeper and find out why I can't see myself as a thin, healthy person.
I think it does have something to do with not wanting to be a sex object. If you're laughing, that's okay. :) It makes me laugh too, but I know on another level, there's truth to this. Last night I had a dream where I was groped by some jerk. I think on a subconscious level I see thin as sexy and sexy as not safe.
There's a creepy dad at the pool who constantly stares at my chest making me feel uncomfortable. I think I need to empower myself to not feel so threatened by the attention of men. I think it goes way back to age 12. Those bra snapping middle school boys traumatized me! LOL!
I certainly want to feel sexy for DH, but how do I accomplish this without the concern I'm soliciting unwanted attention from other men? I'll have to work on this while practicing my visualization sessions.
Well, that's probably TMI for all of you, but my blog is my journal and how I work stuff out in my head. Read at your own risk. :)
4 comments:
Forget about skinny and sexy and just visualize HEALTHY. That will get you where yuu need to be. You have men staring at you now, and you have a loving husband... you don't need to worry about becoming sexy... you are already!! Think healthy. (((HUG))) Glad you got through the storm with no damage. Stay safe!
We got all ice and this is my 3rd night off. I could get out now if the energy company would come take the power line off my car. I hope to go back tomorrow night, my future paycheck can not take another night off but I do have to say I really did need the rest and am just going to count that part a blessing. I should have been working on school but I did not even do much of that. I have been tired and just took it easy. last week was so busy I just needed a break. Stay safe
LOL! Poor Yumi! Has she taken over TWO of the chair cushions now?!?!? :-)
Glad you all made it through the storm with minimal damage.
Believe it or not, I get what you mean about being fearful about 'sexy'. It took me a long time to get past that. Hugs! You will find your way.
Sounds like all enjoyed their snow day. Glad you and your husband stayed home from work, better safe then sorry.
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