I couldn't part with recycling the Christmas tree yet so we moved it to the back deck for the birds. I'm hoping they choose to seek shelter in it, but so far I think they are wondering how a tree popped up over night. There is a Mourning Dove content with perching near the bird feeder, but no feathered friends have tried landing on the tree yet. If we don't get the tree to the curb for our village recycling, we'll just do it ourselves later. The yard waste area is just a block down from us, but then again, I could recycle this tree in our own compost as well.
My friend's funeral was okay, but its always difficult for me to attend a church that preaches a different understanding of the bible than I have. I appreciated the kind words spoken by her husband and the fact my family could be with me during this difficult task. I know its a good thing for my boys to see different cultures and different religions. I know my friend's faith gave her great strength and for that I'm grateful. I do still wish she would have had a better understanding of my faith, because it would have relieved the fears she had for her own children. I found it very uncomfortable to hear her preacher question my friend's children's beliefs at their mother's funeral. I don't know how comforting that was for them, if at all.
I had such vivid dreams last night, loaded with extreme detail. Part of my dreams involved my deceased cat. I kept trying to find her. I'm sure the next several weeks I'll be dealing with how to cope with loss.
Maybe I will find ways to "recycle" rather than give up those feelings. During my friend's service someone spoke about her feelings of regret for not sharing more time with Judy. Instantly I thought to myself there was no need for this. Judy would want us to continue loving others and in doing so, it erases all regrets. She did so much and touched the lives of so many. I know rather than regret, it would be better to find ways to reach out to others and continue Judy's spirit of giving. This is how I plan to work through this. Recycling the love Judy gave me.
4 comments:
An awesome way to remember your friend, Dawn. She must have been a very special person. God knows what lives in our hearts. It doesn't matter what church we attend, but rather how we live our lives and that we have faith.
Lovely thought and an incredible way to remember your friend. From what you've said of her, I think she'd be pleased. :-)
Maybe if you put lights on the tree the birds will visit it? lol
I'm so sorry for the loss of your friend *hug*
I had placed one string of outdoor lights on it, but it only half lit up. Plus we starting thinking about the fire hazard since outdoors in the below 32 temps, it will be impossible to water the tree. This morning, I'm thinking of removing the stand and just moving the tree to the compost area. It keeps blowing over and eventually our tree stand will break if this keeps up. Or maybe a raccoon tried to climb it and this is why it fell over?
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