Pain is the theme for me lately. I guess I'm being called to work through it and rise above, but will you allow me first to vent? (If not, stop reading, because I'm going to anyway.)
The holiday weekend began great, but on Saturday a van almost sideswiped us. As I saw the van about to hit us, I turned and tensed my body on instinct. Thankfully the cell phone distracted driver swerved back over before impact, sparing our car, but the damage to my body was done. I messed up my back and shoulder tensing up like that. I have chest pains every time I have to take a breath which basically is every few seconds if I want to live.
A headache followed and stayed for the duration of the weekend. I still have brain cloud this morning, although the pain has dulled a great deal. At one point, I was thinking - virus - because my joints all started to ache as well. My energy level was almost non-existent too.
Monday I used an Italian pottery dish to re-heat beans in the microwave. Apparently, Italian pottery is not microwavable. I grabbed the dish with my hand, instantly burning my thumb. Interestingly, the beans were still ice cold, while the dish was lava hot. I cannot imagine the suffering a burn victim must feel. I was in agony over my thumb.
Let's move on now to emotional pain. Yumi is very sick. I think its life threatening sick. I noticed over the weekend she had stopped eating. I was able to get her to drink a few sips of water, only to watch her throw up foam afterward. I anxiously waited to call the vet after the holiday weekend, and now it seems I can't get her in until Wednesday morning. Apparently there are a lot of sick fur babies in this town.
I have to stop beating myself up over this. I did not make her sick. I am not a vet. I can offer her the best care I can until her appointment. I smeared Nutri-cal on her fur hoping she'll lick it off. Its a high calorie gel that can sustain a cat nutritionally on a teaspoon or two a day. I've also tried to get her to lick up some fish oil. If cats lose weight too quickly, it damages their livers.
Right now she is still going about her usually activities, (except for eating and drinking), but I can tell she is dehydrating quickly. I hope she can make it the next 24 hours. I'll feel better if the vet can get some fluids into her tomorrow morning, although there has to be something seriously wrong with her.
I'm going to take it moment by moment today and try my best to find a place of peace rather than worry.
4 comments:
Oh my you've had a rough weekend. Sending you + Yumi healing vibes. Keep us posted on Yumi. *hug*
Sending gentle hugs, thank God you were not in an accident but Iam sorry you are in so much pain. I hope you feel better soon
I'm so sorry to hear about your pain, and about precious Yumi. I know the emotional pain for Yumi is worse than your physical pain. Praise God that woman corrected her vehicle before impact! Will you see a chiropractor? I'll keep your blog in my prayers. Please keep us posted about you and Yumi.
Hugs! Very sorry to hear Yumi isn't doing well. I am seriously shocked that upon hearing she is not eating and drinking they did not get you in right away. :-( It makes me thankful for my own vet. You say the cat isn't eating and they make the time.
Hope she recovers quickly. Hope you feel better. And, thanks for the warning about Italian pottery and microwaves. :-(
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