Thursday, October 16, 2008

Not feeling like myself....

I can't focus. I feel disconnected, discombobulated. I'm not liking the skin I'm in, and I feel like I'm fighting the current rather than riding it. Or maybe I'm just trying to clutch to the bank when I should be enjoying the ups and downs of the rapids?

Anyway, I just wish I could hit the pause button on the clicker and take a moment to realign.

Why do only celebrities and rich people get personal assistants?
   They can pay for them.

I know, I know. I'm feeling like a sorry sap. Its just right now there are life details I wish I didn't have to fret over.

13 Things I need a Personal Assistant For

1. Pay the bills on time.

2. Remind me DH is out of town on business, and that's why he hasn't shown up to pick up the kids. He's not lying dead in a ditch.

3. Go grab something for the boys to eat while they wait at my work for their father to return from his business trip.

4. Set up DH's voicemail on his cell phone and buy him minutes!

5. Oil changes

6. FIND ME A USB CABLE!!!!

7. Find someone to tow away the dead car sitting in the garage.

8. Call the vet, the dentist and the doctor and schedule all our appointments

9. Remind me to buy an eye patch, a pirate hat, a pair of fangs and a tuxedo like suit. (This is all for one costume. Thank goodness the other child is happy with being a Poptart made out of cardboard!)

10. Remind me to walk. Walk for exercise, walk for fun, walk to walk AWAY FROM IT ALL!

11. Make sure the meat gets moved to the fridge to thaw.

12. Clear off the counter so I can roll out tortillas. He needs to know I love him.

13. FIND MY SOCKS!!!!!


12 comments:

Edie 5 said...

wouldn't that be nice, l'd have them cook all the meals too, l am so tired of cooking and thinking of things to make.

Stormmie aka Kim said...

I'd throw in cooking + cleaning too

Maija Benson said...

I am pretty sure we have several of those!! I can be your PA and give you one on Saturday!

Tiina Maija said...

When I read the first paragraph of this entry I realized I feel that way when I'm at work (it's a good metaphor to describe my feelings there). It's a nasty feeling when you're not satisfied with something which is notable in your life... I hope you find some solutions soon.

Debbi :) said...

I'm sorry you're not feeling like yourself. :( I have often thought it would be nice to have someone to take care of paying bills and just give me an allowance. LOL I am sure I'd react the way Lucy Ricardo did when Ricky hired a money manager and she was shocked to see just how little allowance she had for the week. lol

JANICE BOWERS said...

I feel and understand your discombobulatedness. I took this week off to "get things done" - ya, like that's happening! Sometimes it seems that I have so much that I want/need to get done and I don't know where to start so... I stand there frozen going duhh..duhh. Here it is Thursday already and I'm just now getting a little something done here and there - I would deffinitely love to have a personal assistant- I would also need a clone so I could send it to work for me..that would be nice.

✿ J♥Liz ✿ said...

it is a yucky feeling.. hang in there cus it never stops lol

MommyKore the Expat said...

I just wish someone else would wash the dishes...for a change.

Florence Ann said...

lol. All it takes is one child to throw you out of whack. Sometimes it is the grown ones that throw the monkey wrench right in. You've got everything scheduled and wham. Mrs. C, could you pick up your son. I told you about this a month ago mom, how could you forget. Ummm. Multi-tasking isn't as easy as it looks. lol. Match it up with lack of sleep and other factors and it is wonder we don't check into a sanitarium for a vacation. I sufffer from AAADD (Adult Acquired Attention Deficit Disorder) I got it from my kids and hubby. Let's not forget about our significant other who kind of forgets all we do because we are so seamless at it. lol. Hey, can I have a meltdown. Oh yes! I'd love to just get down on the floor and have a royal one. Okay one night with a do not disturb sign on the door and I'll be as good as new. How about you? Thanks for posting this. I thought I was the only one. ;)

Linda Petersen said...

Been there, done that, at work and at home. It may sound simple, but, when I feel overwhelmed by so many things that need to get done--I make a list. First, I start telling myself, you have to break all this down into manageable pieces. Everything cannot be done at one time. It helps me organize my thoughts, prioritize, and I feel good when I can cross something off the list. I would have went crazy if I didn't do this when I was working and taking care of my mom and dad. It seemed like I didn't have time for anything--let alone a life of my own. Everyone needed a piece of my time. Even though I don't have the same stress in my life anymore, I still make my lists (maybe more for memory lapses than anything else) and I still put something on the list for myself. For example: turn out the lights, light the candles, and take a nice long hot bath; go out and buy a new bra and underwear; go down to the lake and take picutres. In other words, don't forget about yourself. I'm retired now and pretty much have alot of time on my hands, and I could sleep all day if I wanted to. But, you know me well enough to know that's not like me. So instead of crawling back in bed after the cats are fed at 5:30am, I look at my list and start knocking things off, one by one. Last nite I treated myself to a cheeseburger at Culvers. I refuse to let things get me down anymore. It helps when I think of all the things I have to be thankful for, like a family that loves me, friends I can depend on, and people that depend on me. I think the worst thing for me would be to wake up some day and know that no one needs me anymore. As tough as it got when everyone did, I was happiest when someone would call and ask for my help and I could be there for them. Just remember, you have to take it one step at a time. Maybe a list for everybody in the household would be good. I think everyone feels good if they accomplish something by themselves. Keep your chin up and always know I'm just a phonecall away. Love You--Mom P

TERESA BOWERS said...

I am kind of feeling the same way myself these days. Chris has been working so much lately that I feel like a single mom and with 2 active little boys plus a daycare to run. It is almost more than I can handle. Luckily I have an understanding husband, fairly flexible children and a Mom that lives close by. I just do what I have to do to survive each day and know that all of the other stuff will still be there tomorrow. I also remember that God is with me and guiding me and giving me strength when I am down in the trenches of this life. Just when it seems that things are at their worst is when the tide begins to turn. Thank you for posting your thoughts and a thanks to your friends for all of their responses. I, too, thought that I was the only one who felt lost at sea. May God bless you, Teresa:)

Lesa McMahon said...

I know exactly how you feel! I've been feeling the same way, too.