I have been doing much soul searching these long weeks of recovery. I have traveled emotionally from such a dark place and its only been recently that I have been able to feel the light returning.
I've been inspired by The Organic Sister, life coach Tara Wagner.
Each day she posts uplifting, uplighting, quotes that have been healing my broken spirit. Yesterday she posted- "Organic Wisdom: Radical healing and growth
often look like chaotic, overwhelming upheaval. Allow the dust to settle
to see the beauty."
She also posted this one- "Say it with me: Things happen FOR me, not TO me. I trust myself to learn and grow."
I encourage you to find her on Facebook and follow her.
I've also been inspired by an article I've read recently, Toni Bernhard J.D. "5 Tough Choices You Face When Chronically Ill Or In Pain".
I know even after I have recovered from my spine surgery, Trigeminal Neuralgia will still stick around, challenging me for the rest of my days on this earth.
I've decided that it's time I grow.
I've decided to stop pushing towards an idea of healthy that I have in my head and instead create a NEW ME. I will continue to make choices that lead to improved health and wellness, but also accept that whatever end results, it was the one intended for me.
I'm not going to think back on past achievements and think, I'll never be able to do that again. I have new achievements to reach and although it may be tempting to judge and compare these future milestones to past accomplishments and believe they don't measure up as well, I'm not going to do that.
I was brought to a place I hadn't planned on residing in, (illness and injury.) I certainly didn't want to set up residence there, but my motivation to move away from this wasn't coming from an honest, fair, authentic spirit. This is why I believe I sank into a depression.
Once I grew and understood the concepts of where I am, is where I am meant to be and who I will become is who I am meant to be, I found it so much easier to be loving toward myself and allow for true healing, physical and spiritual.
Today I celebrate coming out of the darkness and back into the positive light. I'm looking forward to continuing my self creation, supported with unconditional self love.
I am going to navigate towards positive, loving souls because I realize, its not my role to be negative peoples' punching bag simply because I'm great at forgiveness. I also recognize it is my responsibility to see the good in everyone.
